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This is a long one, It's something that's been bothering me immensely since it happened and I just need to vent, I just need some advice. Sorry for my grammar, im pretty distraught.
6 Years ago, I met a guy on the internet. I live in the us, and he lived in the UK. He was bisexual and was in a long distance relationship with some chick he barely talked to, around two years later, she fell in love with someone else and dumped him. Even though their relationship at that point boiled down to having a week of pity sex once every month, he was distraught for months.
By this time we had gotten pretty close,I supported him as much as I could through his breakup,(I knew it wasn't going to last to begin with) and I THOUGHT that I loved him. about 5 months later, I had confessed my feelings for him, and he said he felt the same way. We slowly became emotionally dependent on each other. He helped me through my schizophrenia diagnosis. He was the one person that I felt that I could act like myself around and not be judged. The one person who could actually *get* me. He loved me, and I loved him, but we both knew we didn't have a "relationship" because we had no feasible way of being *together*.
A few months later he moves in with a roommate. This roommate funds a trip four months ahead of time for him to come over to the states and see me. Me and him get a lot closer, We start saying "I love you" more often, our feelings become a relationship... or so I thought.
That month, I join a guild on guild wars 2, He meets this chick through the mumble, I'll call her Creamy. Creamy has ptsd, and two other boyfriends. Neither of which interact with her in a meaningful way on a daily basis.She introduces my boyfriend to the idea of "polyamory", dispite the poor quality of both her relationships. They fall in love after one meeting at a cafe. A couple weeks before hes set to come over he "falls in love" with her other boyfriend as well. (in the course of a week) They have a meetup. He tells me he'll be there for a couple days, three at most. He ends up being there for a week and a half, where he largely ignores most of my texts, which I can accept because his blackberry doesn't vibrate or flash when he uses the Steam app. I question him when he gets back, I ask him if he really loves me, if his idea of "love" is to fuck two people he barely knows for a week. He says he loves me, but (despite being a fucking "writer") He can't explain it to me in words.
Que the week of his arrival, we meet each other in person after six years. It's awkward at first, but we soon get used to one another. My parents treat us to a ball game, a day trip to new york city (which he hated. We take couple trips to rural Maryland and two trips to DC. He says he loves me, we kiss, we play video games. We have sex.
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