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I sometimes come back to you guys Ariel 17/11/25(Sat)00:10 No. 5641 ID: ab4eba [Reply]
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I sometimes come back here to remember the times when things weren't going so well to show you guys that things really can change.
I now found work in Milan, Italy. I don't earn that much, about €1300 a month.
I finally found a girlfriend. We met on the 1st of April of this year and we liked eachother immediately. We've been together ever since. It wasn't easy at all because we had tough moments for a lot of reasons. We are both born in 1988.
At first I thought our relationship wasn't that serious so I wasn't so much emotionally involved even though she is really beautiful but then she showed me that she did like me a lot. I started acting more serious about the relationship and we ended up passing more and more time together.
The most serious thing we had to face was a really serious health issue on her side: she was bit probably by a tick and she contracted some form of Lyme disease. I don't want to explain all the things we went through those 3 months but in summary a strange spot showed up on her left elbow. At first we didn't think much about it but after one month and a half strange symptoms started appearing. At first she had fever for one day and after that she started feeling dizzy, nausea, joint pain, very tired, confused, amnesia. She searched these symptoms online and found out about the Lyme disease. We were very lucky that she had a male nurse friend that passed her antibiotics for free and she started taking antibiotics without any diagnosis from a medic. In fact we had absolutely no help from any doctor that we visited, even expert infectivologists. After exactly 3 weeks of taking antibiotics twice a day those strange symptoms were almost all gone and slowly she recovered. We were very lucky because I've heard of a lot of people, even famous people, that fought with the Lyme disease for years just because they didn't treat it immediately.
I am so happy we got over those days because I couldn't stand to see her, the girl I love, in those conditions. Now she is better but still has problems with her parents. She still lives with her parents and brother. They stress the life out of her and it makes me mad. I've met them in one really strange situation. I work during the week. In those days when she wasn't feeling so well and her parents were on vacation in the mountains I wanted to stay with her at their place so she could feel better and not make disasters because of her Lyme disease caused amnesia. So in the evening, after a day at work, I would take the train and go to her parents' house and sleep with her in her room, without her parents suspecting anything. Then, in the morning, I would take the train and go to work. All went well the first couple of days then on the last night I would stay there her brother spied on us and told her parents about us. They arrived in the middle of the night while we were sleeping naked and huggin Message too long. Click here to view the full text.


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Eeyore 17/12/05(Tue)05:36 No. 5653 ID: 858dc6

>>5647
And your Grandfather sounds like a good man.


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Eeyore 18/01/29(Mon)06:31 No. 5695 ID: 0ce5c2

Is that a picture of you guys?
If not, can you show us one..? Im not going to do anything with it, its just comforting for me to see /grim/ success...


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Ariel 18/02/08(Thu)20:12 No. 5706 ID: 597e55

>>5652
We should always concentrate on the bright side of things because of how our minds are made we already prone to negative thoughts. This means that our minds catch on more easily the bad news than the good news. I am sorry for what you may have experience. I know how hard it is to forgive and forget the bad things that people may have done to you during childhood. I can tell you that things do change and with time things can improve but you have to make a change. Even small changes are important. Little by little, day by day, things can get better. They can also get worse, that's true but we should always hope for the best and fuck all the rest!
Don't even think about the antichrist because it's just a waste of time. We should all read more of the Bible and try to understand it. I believe the best English version is King James version. Get the original wisdom, straight from the source and not using some proxy or some random preacher who just wants our money. We should be deeply thankful just for the fact that we are able to read and write.

>>5695
Yes, it's a picture of us two. I'll look through the pictures to find one where our faces aren't that clear so people online can't identify us.




I miss my Dad Eeyore 18/01/01(Mon)02:11 No. 5665 ID: dccaa3 [Reply]
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New Year's sure lost it's shine ever since my Dad died this very night six years ago. I never talk about it with anyone, not even my SO of twenty years. My Dad was awesome and I miss him.


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Eeyore 18/01/07(Sun)14:46 No. 5667 ID: 1fb76f

I am very sorry for your lost and I hope that you can find happiness in this world. Peace be with you.


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Eeyore 18/01/14(Sun)02:08 No. 5675 ID: 95b761

>>5665
You can talk about it here, with us, under a mask of anonymity. its nice sometimes to get things off your chest.

would you like to talk about it?


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Eeyore 18/01/20(Sat)23:12 No. 5688 ID: d425cf

>>5675
I'll come here from time to time and unload.




Eeyore 17/09/03(Sun)22:17 No. 5544 ID: 15dcfa [Reply]
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What makes it hard for you to fall asleep at night ? Since early childhood I'm afraid to die while I sleep, so I just stay awake sometimes..


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Eeyore 17/11/12(Sun)02:10 No. 5624 ID: 5a17f7

>>5620
I have exactly the same problem. Every night I stay up until I'm nodding off on my keyboard because tomorrow brings another day of wretched routine.


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Eeyore 18/01/18(Thu)07:55 No. 5685 ID: 86f262

>>5544
I've come to a point where i find myself smiling when thinking of not waking up anymore i the morning.


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Eeyore 18/01/18(Thu)13:47 No. 5686 ID: f5d3b7

many things can make it difficult to fall asleep. not working enough, working too much, being stressed, environment being too hot or too cold, too much noise, too much caffeine or other stimulants.

luckily I have realised that no matter what struggles I go through, I can always rely on a nice Indica smoke to soothe me to sleep.




/grim/ games Eeyore 18/01/15(Mon)03:52 No. 5677 ID: 1bd55b [Reply]
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What are some good /grim/ psycho games?

Like: Hatred, Manhunt, Doom with schoolshooter mods and in some way Dishonored. Does anyone know about more games like this?

I've seen some that are pretty close to them, i can't remember the names and my internet is pretty fucked to even search them, but they're dev/published by Devolver Digital.


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Eeyore 18/01/15(Mon)11:42 No. 5682 ID: 1bd55b

>>5681
Oh yeah.




Do you know Nihilumbra? Havent played it but i saw some videos and it's pretty close to what we want to achieve.

What is this "Torrente" game about? Isn't that a movie?


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Vanonymouse!w.OxY3rAM6 18/01/16(Tue)17:26 No. 5683 ID: fcfe09

>>5682

Yes. It is. But it's much much much MUCH worse than that. Here's a youtube link: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jajst67DqtE


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Eeyore 18/01/18(Thu)04:04 No. 5684 ID: ccd1b9

>>5683
I don't think it gets to the point we want except for the humor that it claims to have.




Sister treats me badly for asking her help during GERD/ Panic Attack nothing 018 18/01/15(Mon)00:57 No. 5676 ID: 79b1e8 [Reply]
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Things to ask my sister

Why she said mom is dying
Why she said I will die alone
Why she can’t accept an apology or a discussion

My sister is offensive, violent and merits misery

Her words have made me hate her
Her words have made me hate her

I hate everything about her
I hate everything about her

I wish she wasn’t here
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Eeyore 17/12/14(Thu)04:09 No. 5659 ID: 0c2267 [Reply]
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is the music on /grim/ gone now or is it just in my browser? i haven't been here for a while and this time there's no music.. i really miss it. i think it really added to the atmosphere of this board and made it a lot more.. hm.. it's difficult to explain. it felt like, as an example, the areas with the merchant in RE4.


also, looking up suicide methods and doing research on effective and efficient methods of self-termination is very comforting to me. i find solace in knowing there is a way out.


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Eeyore 17/12/15(Fri)16:39 No. 5660 ID: b2d00d

>>5659
It's an embedded youtube in an iframe; check your security and adblocking settings.

<iframe width="1" height="1" src="https://www.youtube-nocookie.com/embed/tWhUPlFnAe8?autoplay=1&loop=1&playlist=tWhUPlFnAe8&wmode=opaque" frameborder="0" allowfullscreen></iframe>




Footsteps in the Darkness Eeyore 17/11/11(Sat)09:33 No. 5623 ID: 355ab2 [Reply]
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Thud, Thud, Thud, Thud. You open your eyes from your deep and dreamless sleep. You try to look over to where the noise is coming from. Thud, Thud, Thud, Thud. But you realize you can't move. Your eyes are straining, tilting to look at the door. That sound, it must be coming from outside your room. You can make out the shadow of someone standing outside from thee crack in between the door and the cold floor. You want to move as fear fills you, you feel it in every inch of your body like a poison. You're muscles strain as you muster all your strength to move, but you can't. Maybe if you scream loud enough someone will hear you. You yell at the top of your lungs, but the only sound that escapes from you may as well have been a gasp. You're thinking to yourself somebody, anybody, GOD HELP ME!!! SAVE ME! PLEASE... Thud, Thud, Thud, its coming closer. you're losing your vision as your peripheral vision goes out of focus and darkens. Your hearing seems as though its being drowned out by the very definition of darkness itself, like waves crashing against a cliffside as you're being held underwater. You can hardly breathe anymore every breathe is feeling closer to being your last. Thud... Thud... Thud... footsteps in the darkness. Thud... Thud... Thud... The dark figure stands right next to your bed. You can feel it, you know its there, but you can't see it. SAVE ME!!! OH GOD!!! SAVE ME PLEASE!!! The words echo in your mind, this must be the end. Those footsteps in the darkness, to whom do they belong?


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Eeyore 17/12/09(Sat)11:06 No. 5656 ID: cc4c6a

my penis




Eeyore 17/11/15(Wed)03:10 No. 5629 ID: 50db27 [Reply]
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I wonder how high-temperature rapid incineration is as a way to go.

I know burning to death is pretty bad, like people who self-immolate or die in house fires, etc. but that's slow, and low-temp. They get cooked to death. Would it be any better if it were hot enough to turn you to ash in minutes?


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Eeyore 17/12/02(Sat)13:03 No. 5648 ID: 27723a

>>5636
I think I found the video you're talking about. The quality is very low, but it looks like he's converted to steam or smoke quite rapidly. It's not that I'm suicidal, but I am fascinated with this particular kind of death. I wonder what he felt, if he felt anything, and how long it took him to die. It's a shame he didn't have the experience scientifically observed.


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Eeyore 17/12/02(Sat)22:11 No. 5649 ID: 8bf12e

>>5648
Death might be so fast that the pain doesn't register, so to speak. On the other hand it could be agonizing and a lot longer than you'd imagine.


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Eeyore 17/12/05(Tue)04:44 No. 5651 ID: e52900

>>5650
I've thought about it before. Sometimes I wonder if the pain from a shotgun blast would hurt.

Overdosing on sedatives, especially "pleasurable" ones, is probably painless.

Incineration is an entirely different thing.

More often, people fall into molten vats by accident. Here's one example: http://www.cnn.com/2009/US/07/09/new.jersey.chocolate.death/.




Eeyore 17/11/07(Tue)23:45 No. 5617 ID: b82db7 [Reply]
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I'm so lonely, I have no friends in rl, no do i care about anyone in rl or online...I try to act funny, be nice, or even stupid...just to make others happy. I do this because I cant feel emotions because of my medications I take...I cant say what they are but the pills i take are to help me live my life everyday...happy, weird, nice...but so empty, so cold. The moment I took these pills i knew i wouldn't be the same old me. Its been 4 years since I first took them...and I'm...lost. I cant feel emotions, I laugh at people in pain, I became more hungry for emotions that People who cry turn me on. These pills keep me sane, keeps me from hurting anyone else or myself everyday. I just want friends who can understand me, who just want me to be me. Who are just there for me when I need them. Honestly, I think about killing myself everyday, I see hallucinations of my own death, hear whispers in the night telling me to kill myself and I hear them, in the night, every-night. I just. I dont want to be alone anymore...I dont want to be alone anymore...I dont want to be alone anymore...I dont want to be alone...help me.


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WMB 17/11/21(Tue)06:51 No. 5640 ID: 223ae4

>>5617
Hey, I know you might never see this, it's basically a fact. But, I have been putting off getting a diagnosis, but I have a strong feeling that I need to be medicated. I've actually been looking at my gun to answer it. I've been waking up to just freaking out of my problems and distracting myself with drugs and alcohol-

My point is, did you feel like you lost yourself in the medication? I feel so different from others but I've learned to grasped it. But this person I've chosen only wants peace.

Peace from needing to pay to live.
Peace from needing to spend my life with another.
Peace from needing to be happy.
Peace from needing to live.

I just want to rot away, still as a rock, and free as a bird.


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Eeyore 17/11/30(Thu)23:44 No. 5646 ID: 8bf12e

>>5640
death is peaceful
A bird is alive. If a bird dies, it's not free anymore, it's dead. Being dead is not like being a bird, it's like chair or a pen. It's not peace, it's inaninmence.

>is the medication good?
Who knows what medication OP is talking about. Antipsychotics can treat psychosis, but they don't always, and they often have serious side effects. If a case is hopeful, the goal is to put an end to the acute episode (it can take a few months to several years) and to ween off the medication.




Depression sucks Eeyore 17/11/16(Thu)04:10 No. 5634 ID: f83095 [Reply]
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I just started the life I've been wanting. I have my lovely boyfriend and we just had a baby together. We're about to move into a house together too. I really do love this man. He is my everything. Our baby is our everything.

But my depression has consumed me completely. I actually feel like I'm losing it all, everything that I've worked for. I keep holding myself back, all I've been giving myself is hate and shame. I feel like I've been a terrible mother. My anxiety gets the best of me. I'm so afraid of not being enough for my daughter. I feel so guilty for the pressure this puts on my boyfriend. He is always there for me, even after seeing me at my worst. But I still can't escape the fear of something interfering our relationship. I'm so afraid of disppointing him. He gets so frustrated with me when I fall into my episodes of bad depression.
This is definitely where I dissapoint him.
He sees me curled up on the ground with spit and snot all over my face, hair, and clothes. He sees me hitting myself in the face. He hears me saying that I want to hurt myself and that I think I'm not enough.
He can't handle this. I shouldn't blame him.

I just lose myself. In fact, I feel fucking crazy.
Thoughts take over and bully me. It all overlaps like a group of people standing around me talking shit while I'm on my knees crying. I cry, I scream, I hit myself, I break things and knock things over without any self control. I even hit him once. I immediately regret these things and then my head is filled with shame and even more self hate.

I get so sensitive. My heart feels like it's literally breaking when I'm criticized. Or when I've done something wrong, even on accident.

I can't get myself out of this sick cycle.

It's ruining my relationship with my boyfriend.
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Eeyore 17/11/20(Mon)01:59 No. 5637 ID: 27614a

>>5634
These things are not even abnormal. People who tend towards depression often have their depression triggered by major life changes, positive or negative. You should look up postpartum depression. That might be something productive to do.

Guilt and sensitivity to criticism is a very normal manifestations of depression. If you have ever gotten help from a counselor, you know this.

Women hit men very often, despite gender rolls suggesting otherwise. You probably hit your boyfriend to hurt him emotionally, as an uncontrolled primal reaction. You probably did not throw a punch that was strong enough injure him, and maybe you couldn't if you tried - this is why women hit their boyfriends quite often.

Feeling crazy is also a common thing in depressed people, since depression can lead to psychosis. You probably should get off the chans and go seek help from a counselor or at least a trusted friend, for your own sake at least.


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Eeyore 17/11/20(Mon)02:02 No. 5638 ID: 27614a

>>5634
Also, if you see a clinical therapist and are offered drugs, know that SSRI's and SNRI's very, very commonly cause sexual side-effects. Antipsychotics, another class of medication, are very dangerous. Antipsychotics don't kill people very often, but they cause a lot of permanent side-effects that affect quality of life.


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Eeyore 17/11/20(Mon)02:11 No. 5639 ID: 27614a

>>5634
I know this is not emotionally supportive, but you have to know that you'll be fine so long as you act intelligently and stay determined. In the spirit of /grim/, you should know that once you get better, you'll feel like this again. But then you'll pull through again, and feel better for a time. Such is life.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ugJfjmxOR2I




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