She's nothing special objectively, but to me she's everything. The thought of her in my head makes me feel things that i cant describe, but I know that if I stop putting her on a pedestal and thinking so highly of her i'll get together with her just as quick as all her past ex's, and leave her equally as quick. Its not that im ugly or awkward or dumb, im the opposite of all that. There is nothing wrong with me, except the absolute state of my crippling mental health. Why am I like this? Why is this girl so meaningful to me? And now that she is, why cant i just make a move? I dont think im afraid of failure - maybe just dissapointment.

1. She's a celebrity
2. I have a live hate relationship with her
3. I'm a sick degenerate
4. I have mental health diagnosis and live on benefits

>>6052
Same here. When I met her she was interested in a friend in common. I started liking her ways and became my crush. I was with someone else, a toxic relationship. She became a close friend and it just doesn't matter what I do, She just doesn't like me like that. I'm average looking and I have been in short relationships, but I want _her_.

because I'm an insecure sperg and a coward

>>4771
She was my teacher 7 years ago.
I try to contact her sometimes but she never answers. I haven't thought about anything else since leaving school. I lock myself in my room all day and imagine scenarios in which we're together

she's too young

Because she is cheerful and loves to go out and I'm maimed by a skin disease.

My yoga instructor. Gorgeous redhead, good friends, a beautiful person. She knows I'm crazy about her. But... I'm already married for 29 years. Sure as hell not gonna screw that up. And she has kids so double forget it. Did the next best thing and made her second beneficiary on my life insurance. (I'm 15 years older)

Whos lurking here?

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>>6183
Me

because you can't make someone like you

never had a crush

I haven't been with a woman in 6 years. Loneliness just gets worse and worse. I'm starting to accept that I may never have sex again. Some days I think I'd be better off castrated and in a monastery.

Less "crush" and more "only person I can see myself hooking up with since I'm too socially inept for anyone else".

Anyway, she's an autist. And nearly all female autists, especially the tomboys, have been brainwashed into becoming a dyke or asexual (the latter, in her case) thanks to all the "ugh men" shit plaguing circles where non-normalfag women gather. This is only catalyzed by their own experiences with men, since the only men who flirt with them are complete tactless retards (attractive men can aim higher, autists with some tact fear rejection too much to bother). So either they turn to other women to try to get their rocks off, or they can't force it and just declare themselves asexual instead. Even though both types still get off to fictional men.

But at least she didn't end up an FTM.

She used to be really into, I had been in love with her for more than 2 years but I also had a girlfriend so I rejected her.
3 years later she has moved on and I still love her, I broke up with my girlfriend a year ago.

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I was a really anxious and socially inept in high-school. Me being shy and scared of girls were the only two things that could be said about me. There was this cute girl in my class, my first (and last one so far) crush. I never had a conversation with her.

I never knew anything about her.

I shot her a message a month ago (2 years after finishing high-school), something along the lines of "yo, how is your life going" she didn't reply, I suppose I got the memo.

She was the first one I fell in love with in high-school, but never had the courage to talk to. I only stayed through the remaining 3 years, because of the hope that I'd say something. Of course, nothing changed, and today I am still a loser with low self-esteem who can't understand how to approach women. I can't forget her. I live in the past and don't want to leave it behind. There is not future, only sad, faded memories long-abandoned by those who will never relate to my suffering.

I've known her for a year and she doesn't know my name. I'll be leaving next year and most likely will never see her again. She is so perfect, beautiful and sweet. I really do wish I could just straight up tell her that to her face.

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Well for starters, she seems to have lost interest in me. I mean, she just wanted weird internet clout or something? So she used me? Basically she connected me with Rolling Stone magazine, I wrote a book, we did a podcast, I made a bunch of albums, & she comes out and just disses me on tape for a decade plus. I mean, I forgave her.. I thought of her as a type of soulmate? But like, the poor girl is so darned daft that she's either an actor first and a musician by accident, or she's just like.. I have no clue. Some sort of enigma, right? Um. I still sort of love her for what she meant to me, but I couldn't get past the part that I was 'trolled' to distract me from our hiatus, even though I would have happily spoken to her, and signed in despite our hiatus, uh.. Yeah. I don't know. I've been sadly in love on and off since I was 13 and now I'm almost 32 and we've never so much as shared a room. It was just like, web shit & I felt like we were a team but she introduced me to her bastard friends and I just couldn't help but avoid Yahoo! after that. I stayed on my MSN & doxxed myself so I was easy to Google, & she just, didn't try. She decided that she was sad, and I was bad, and I developed brain damage from my severe depression (due to my parents insisting I never have online friends; thus I never told a soul about my 'soulmate') in that I was medicated until my passwords and past alias' were all forgotten. So like, right before her music went back on Spotify, I Googled her after seeing her face on a magazine, in that I never liked pop singers and didn't listen to the radio or watch television, so I was just picking up my pills & saw her face and said "I should find out who that woman is" as I was famously pretending to be in a relationship with her and Ava Taylor (aka the Ava Taylor Swift conundrum) without even so much as knowing that Taylor wasn't a brunette. I had this infatuation with her, even after I had lost the ability to remember her. But I Googled her, and her birthday triggered memories to being at the public library, writing to the girl in chatrooms, installing the messenger app every day, and yada yada I just don't think it's going to work out. She has her friends use my PC and share my music. She even had me finish the story to several of my future television shows; of which many have hit more than 1 season over the past decade. Like, I honestly don't know. I have no interest in fame, or fortune, & I have claimed time & time again that I'd rather be a recluse, or live in 1745, but it's 2020 & the only girl I've ever so much as felt a legitimate connection to decided against love, and instead works on producing secret pornography with strange men. It's fascinating, I mean.. Like I said, I had, before my memories kicked in, been interested in Rachel; Ava Taylor, so like, I'm not the type gonna be all "you whore" at her, but I legitimately don't get her any longer. We were so close. Bastille day 2002 until my birthday 2004 when I was supposed to be gone for only a month. But there was something growing in her, & now I'm just going to click around Tinder, even though I'd rather be single at the moment. I mean, I like when I get matches, but they're mostly just that. A like. Right? I've never made a real connection. I've been neglected my whole life. I wish I had a lover.

>>6521

This is very sad and relatable. I hope you at least have a picture to remember her by.

sage

>>4771
I no longer have crushes because porn broke my brain and its illegal for me to see anyone but family members.

>>4771
I no longer have crushes because porn broke my brain and its illegal for me to see anyone but family members.

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>>4771
because age gap, havent talked to him in months, he hates me because of stupid stuff i said. he cut off contact with me in late july and then in early november we talked one ast time...told him i hated him nd i wished id never met him. its been almost 6 months since we had a real talk yet everyday i think of him and hope well meet again some day. im sure im delusional, i just want something to love so i focus all my love on someone i dont even talk to anymore, and i make him out to be perfect in my mind. i try to think about other men but cant.

>>4842
>on the right
>trans
literally no and youre a deplorable faggot for wanting a fucking tranny.

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I had something with a chick beforehand. I was just being me, but looking back on it, being carefree and quiet isn't always exactly admirable for a relationship. I pissed her off, and out of both anger and disappointment in me, she fucked another guy behind my back, and left me. This fucked me up for a good while, and warped my sense of self. The next girl I dated was the one. She was beautiful, quiet, thought before she spoke, was open to any kind of discussion/media. I fucked it all up because I thought she'd get taken away from me if I wasn't a man in charge with a high libido.

Turns out she was taken away, for the exact opposite reason. I've hated myself for that every day since. There's no chance in hell she'd be reading this. But I'll say it here because I'm too cowardly to ever say it to your face. Iliza, I'm sorry for being such a pathetic first. I hope you get the best in life.

>>4771
Which one?

>4771
Well I cant date my crush because society doesnt accept a 30 year old Black man date a 12 year old. We live in such a racist white supremacist society.

>>6598
12 is too old. If you're going to go full edgelord interracial pedophilia, at least have the balls to fuck a 9-year-old girl up the butt.

>6600
You know wut im fucking a -12 year old . IS THIS PEDO ENOUGH TO YOU. Fucking Spider Experts, trying, to. Teach me how to be pedo;.

>>6601
>is this pedo enough for you
By definition, it is not. All 12-year-old girls have started puberty and in this day and age, often two years into it. This would make it ephebophilia or even hebephilia, not pedophilia. Get your definitions straight.

>>4771
oh because she died

She fucked me over money whils I made tunes and rap projects got sent elsewhere to other rappers because I didn't yt it, I sent it to a records which gave me a contract for all the projects I'd make tunes and words to. Now without as many tracks as I had and no income from records since I took a big pay for all of it, the rest will be from concerts but now I get no contact with the records company all pademic. IDK

We were best friends for ten years. Eventually in a relationship for three. They stayed over at a friend's house one day. Before they left they told me they loved me and all the usual stuff. When they arrived, I didn't receive a single message that night as was usual. Next morning I didn't receive a "good morning, darling" as was usual. They were quiet, distant. A few days later they said they weren't confident in our relationship, that they still loved me, but wanted to breakup. They want to just "be best friends".

I still love them. I try to stay in contact but it's been far too painful for me to. They've already moved on, in less than a month, and is sharing their happy life with people on social media while I drink away most of my days and withdraw socially. Socializing with others feels wrong, like I've forgotten how to behave around people.

Never had a crush before them and nobody else interests me romantically. Barely anyone interests me sexually either. I'd probably take them back in a heartbeat. But because they don't and likely never really loved me, it wouldn't workout.

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I'm famous

Dreams of highschool haunt me. Long shadows in the twilight, and the wolves are out. Alone in a crowd, the architecture of my school illogical and misleading. I'm looking for her but I'm alone and time is running out. Words left unsaid dug my grave long ago..

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wcAiEzlycFk

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I don't have a crush, I have to refuse all personal entanglements or else more torment will be faced.

Because she's a narcissist that only cares about sex and money.

I had true crush very long ago, but I had persuaded myself that it wasn't crush and ignored it, because I was afraid that it will affect my will in a bad way.

I'm at that point in my life where I never really go out, so I can't really say I have a crush at the moment.

That being said, to all you shy lonely nerds, listen up: if you want to be with that someone, you actually have to make *some* sort of move. I made a move with a woman I met on this very website, asked if she would be okay if we met, and she was down. We had a fun time.

Like seriously, y'all need to stop assuming the worst-case scenario. And even if it does happen, honestly, being rejected is a nice thing, since it frees up mental energy to pursue other things and people, instead of wallowing in worry and indecision: time you can never get back.

And if you're worried about your feelings being hurt, need I remind you that your parents, friends, schoolmates, coworkers, random people online, etc already do that to you.

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>>6683

>Like seriously, y'all need to stop assuming the worst-case scenario.

They do so because it gives them an out, an excuse not to develop an actual personality.

because she's a fictional 2d character in a visual novel that I can never really touch or speak to in a human manner and also she has no arms

Bad Luck. Bad Timing.

She lead me on for years and after we got drunk and she threw me a pitty fuck because her boyfriend heated on her she accused me of rape and now she probably has a kid that is mine.

Women are just inherently sociopathic.

>>7126
>Women are just inherently sociopathic.

And people like you just never shut the fuck up about it. We get it, you have mommy issues. No one cares, goddamn.

>>7144
I actually had a really good relationship with my mom.

>>4772
It is good that she is straight. Lesbien relationships statisticically and logically never go anywhere, and the abuse rate is high.

>>7159
And let me guess, she's one of the "based foids" or whatever too. Yawn. If anything, only millennial women (well, the men too, really) are fucked. Women from any other gen are pretty chill. But it seems every single millennial bitch is either a Swiftie tard or a femcel who hates troons because men would rather fuck a tranny then them.

>>4771
Because she posted this thread tbh.