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I sometimes come back here to remember the times when things weren't going so well to show you guys that things really can change.
I now found work in Milan, Italy. I don't earn that much, about €1300 a month.
I finally found a girlfriend. We met on the 1st of April of this year and we liked eachother immediately. We've been together ever since. It wasn't easy at all because we had tough moments for a lot of reasons. We are both born in 1988.
At first I thought our relationship wasn't that serious so I wasn't so much emotionally involved even though she is really beautiful but then she showed me that she did like me a lot. I started acting more serious about the relationship and we ended up passing more and more time together.
The most serious thing we had to face was a really serious health issue on her side: she was bit probably by a tick and she contracted some form of Lyme disease. I don't want to explain all the things we went through those 3 months but in summary a strange spot showed up on her left elbow. At first we didn't think much about it but after one month and a half strange symptoms started appearing. At first she had fever for one day and after that she started feeling dizzy, nausea, joint pain, very tired, confused, amnesia. She searched these symptoms online and found out about the Lyme disease. We were very lucky that she had a male nurse friend that passed her antibiotics for free and she started taking antibiotics without any diagnosis from a medic. In fact we had absolutely no help from any doctor that we visited, even expert infectivologists. After exactly 3 weeks of taking antibiotics twice a day those strange symptoms were almost all gone and slowly she recovered. We were very lucky because I've heard of a lot of people, even famous people, that fought with the Lyme disease for years just because they didn't treat it immediately.
I am so happy we got over those days because I couldn't stand to see her, the girl I love, in those conditions. Now she is better but still has problems with her parents. She still lives with her parents and brother. They stress the life out of her and it makes me mad. I've met them in one really strange situation. I work during the week. In those days when she wasn't feeling so well and her parents were on vacation in the mountains I wanted to stay with her at their place so she could feel better and not make disasters because of her Lyme disease caused amnesia. So in the evening, after a day at work, I would take the train and go to her parents' house and sleep with her in her room, without her parents suspecting anything. Then, in the morning, I would take the train and go to work. All went well the first couple of days then on the last night I would stay there her brother spied on us and told her parents about us. They arrived in the middle of the night while we were sleeping naked and hugging eachother. They turned on the lights and we started arguing. They even called the police. I took my stuff and went out in the street while waiting for the police to arrive. They arrived, I showed them my documents and no charges were filed because no crime was committed. I waited for my girlfriend to gather her stuff and we both went in the middle of the night out of her parents' house. It was a really ugly and sad situation. I never thought her family would be so ignorant and insufferable. The police gave us a lift to the local train station but there were no trains so we took a hotel room. I slept like 2 hours but she slept even less because of how preoccupied she felt about the whole situation. In the morning we took the train to Milan, I went to work while she went to my place.
This happened a few months ago. Now she works part-time in a supermarket. We are looking for a place to rent just for the two of us. We want to move together on February.
I don't know if you remember me but I posted a few months ago about how bad I was feeling because my grandmother passed away. I can't say I'm the happiest man on earth now but I must say I feel much better than before meeting my girlfriend. I stopped drinking heavily just to cope with the sorrow. Things are not going bad at work and in general things are not going terribly wrong.
I just wanted to tell you that things can really change for the best but sometimes, maybe, they need a little push. You need to have faith in God, Jesus Christ our Lord, and courage. You need to fight for yourself and for what is right. Yes, there are dark times when the best thing to do is stay low but it can't last forever. After rain there comes sun and you always need to be prepared for both. Maybe it's the way I am made but if I have to go down I prefer to go down fighting. I don't to sit still like a sheep while the wolf tries to eat me. I am wolf in a certain way. If I feel like I have self-destructive tendencies in me then I try to direct those tendencies towards the thing that is trying to pull me down and to destroy me. I won't go down without a fight, as brutal as it might be.
Good luck to you guys!
P.S. I'm sorry I'm not that good of a writer. I try my best.