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That moment when you realize you are in love, head over heals, with that fucking mess of a girl you banged on again and off again for a few years. Yeah the cold one that could give a single fuck about anything ever, almost completely devoid of all emotion. Until she breaks down after fucking your brains out and tells you about the years of sexual abuse by her foster father and all the horrible shit that goes into living a terrible life. How for the first time ever she feels something real, love, for you. And what do you do? Also being a cold, emotionless, heartless fuck who gave up on those inefficient and utterly useless emotions many years ago in a vain attempt to protect your still growing ego, you just look at her with disdain as you thing you are watching someone disgrace themselves in front of you. Watch with an empty stare this sad pathetic creature laying in your bed. You reject her, you have only one need from her, that is her body. fast forward about 3 years, you and said girl still sporadically have contact, some times you sleep together sometimes she just tries to start arguments. You don't care. You feel nothing. You decide to try acid with your Friend, who you met and stayed close to well before the events that lead you to abandoning emotion. He went down a similar path, one of cold calculating, remorseless efficiency.
You are reborn.
you realize your whole life was a lie. Everything you believed was wrong , something deep down inside you is re-awoken you feel strange.
You feel.
You begin a new life, your friend also newly forged into a real human being. You try and correct your wrongs, sometimes you fail sometimes you succeed. You get hurt, and you move on, dealing with the pain that you ran away from your whole short life. then one day it happens, a phone buzzes in your pocket. A text message, from a number not saved in your phone but you know instantly who it is by looking at the number. they have no idea the journey you have embarked on in the last year. they want to see you. You feel shame, you feel revulsion as you think about everything that has to do with this person, you think of that one moment. The lowest point in your whole god damn life, the point of utter failure that is you. You text her back, agreeing to see her. You haven't seen her in about a year, other than random posts that sometimes comes up on Facebook you have zero idea what she has been doing. The day that has to pass before you see her is a day spent agonizing over the past wondering what could happen, what you should do. The day passes slowly, you cant sleep, you feel sick, and depressed. The drive is numbing, you haven't slept for a good 20 hours, its hard to focus on anything. you arrive at the pre-mentioned place. She hops in your car and you begin the drive home. Little to no words are exchanged, none of importance at least. You don't look at her, finding new found foucous to dri
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