/grim/ - Cold, Grim & Miserable

Eeyore 20/09/28(Mon)05:19 No. 6539 ID: b42dc4

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everythings fine. great, even. it appears i do have some social skills and put them to work just fine

then why do i feel so doubtful and despairing all the time? why do i feel sluggish and backwards when i compare myself to others? why do i feel like ive been left aside from important or enjoyable moments because of just being me? why do i feel encased in ice, trapped in time and unable to catch up with everyones rythm?

every been to a party? for those who have, id probably know how we would spend time at it: awkwardly holding a glass of soda in a corner while looking at our feet. thats what id do anyways. thats how id feel anyways. thats the feeling that chases me to this very day, at any moment. at home. outside. alone. with other people
me; stunted by rave lights and ear-shattering music like a deer surprised by a car's headlights watching everyone have fun and be better

Eeyore 20/09/30(Wed)22:32 No. 6540 ID: b83bb7

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It's because life is pain, OP. Life is inherently alienating and painful by its very nature. And no matter how close we get to experiencing understanding and acceptance of other people. At the end of the day the only thing we, truly, have is ourselves. No one can ever, truly, understand you, but, you. That's what you are feeling. That emptyness, that isolation, no matter what you do. it's because you are constantly trying to, truly, connect, but, the human condition makes this an impossibility.
TL;DR, You are alone.

Then listen to it, instead of running away from it Eeyore 22/01/17(Mon)20:33 No. 6729 ID: 182caf

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>why do i feel like ive been left aside from important or enjoyable moments because of just being me?
You were not being you totally, but X thing of others.
>why do i feel encased in ice, trapped in time and unable to catch up with everyones rythm?
Because going towards others rhythm instead of yours is unnatural and unhealthy. Or is it that they answer back adapting also to yourself? Of course not. You're selling your soul to the expectations of the world, which deserves nothing.
>every been to a party? for those who have, id probably know how we would spend time at it: awkwardly holding a glass of soda in a corner while looking at our feet.
Why do you spend yourself trying to adapt to this world? Don't answer to me! No answer would ever serve as reason enough to such outrage. IF we go to a party for 2 things only: have your meal there and then go away. Stop chasing this world! You are going to be left apart anyways and also hollow for doing so.
>everyone has fun and is better
Or they just pretend to be so. If they do not asume you, why are you there trying to amuse everyone? The standard of the world judges you according to what you put in for it. Answer back judging reversally, and think about the world according to its deeds, never its promises.

Don't play music for those who do not even sing for you. Chase yourself. Dig into your void. You have been letting the world to alienate yourself all this time... listen to your feelings and give away this ridiculous entreprise of being whom you are not, chasing thankless passions, thankless desires.