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did some one break reddit?

Posting on a image board no one reads just so I can speak freely without it being tied to my username on a regular forum.

I'd like to express a few simple things. I'm not mad or angry at anyone about it all. I did do a few very stupid things in my life and I did deserve some of what was done to me in retaliation. I admit that.

Nothing happened. It was all dreams, misunderstandings, and me being overly dramatic for effect. That's cool.

Let me tell you all something though. You know how to put the Genie back in the bottle? Do you know how to find all those tiny feathers that waffed around when you dumped that bag of gossip? Can you collect all the grains of sand you dumped on the ground? It's just not feasible. So even if things are cool from this point on, what happens if I run into someone who is one of those grains? I just pretend whatever they think, which I don't even know, is true?

I guess I'll just play dumb. Like they do.

But what I really came here to say is two other things. One is that even though I got emotionally stirred up by some recent revelations, that's still not really even me. Not that you care but I'd never do any of the things you seem to worry about and I'm going to stay away from that stuff both in terms of looking and thinking. Not for you. Not because you want me to, but for me. Because that's not really who I am.

I don't expect you to give a shit one way or the other. You seem to have already made up your mind. I can't stop an invisible sniper anymore than I can change someone's mind about something they think when I don't know what it is.

Funny though, I thought you didn't need it to be true. I guess it's easier that way, if there's a crumb of truth to it. But a decision based on that to justify a permanent "hold" is so unbelievably over the top and overboard I can hardly believe anyone thinks it's acceptable.

Oh it's easy to White Knight it and strut around like you're a hero or something. I get it. And the truth of the matter, the whole truth remains largely unknown to the pawns but I tell you most of them would assist anyway. Because that's not really why they help. Is it?

There's a sadness that I feel and always will it seems. In my youth it was unidentified by me. I knew it was there but I didn't know the full reason why. It's also sad that it was so easy for you. I had no idea how easy it could be to do this to someone. It tells me a lot about people.

>>844744

Anyway, enough about that. Let's talk about who I was and what was important to me in my life.

You know what I loved as a kid? Running. Jumping. Superman, and later Batman. Fun. Pretend adventure. I liked to ride my bike. I was naive. I was good hearted and just wanted friends. I got blindsided.

And that was long before you should have had any reason. We both know that. Behind my back the whole time. No wonder the kids treated me like they did. You know what a fool I feel? The whole time I'm being nice to everyone and can't understand why they all disliked me so much. It's so despicable to do that to a child. Or anyone really.

And there's the rub man. See I forgive you. I even forgive many of the one timers. But for those who know it;s more than a temporary thing and STILL think it's acceptable? I was suicidal as a child over it. Isn't that one of your talking points about child abuse, that it can make a kid suicidal? That's so ironic that you care so much about that yet cause kids to become suicidal yourself without a care in the world about it.

So that's who most people are. Not caring at all if they cause that and worse yet not caring at all if the person ends up with no life, no friends, no family, no career, no future, no nothing, while simultaneously knowing what you did to them caused that and that even if they deserved some of it 20 years ago, (or more) they don't today/Or maybe you think I do. Maybe you don't give a fuck if I do or not.

The point is that I'll be nice and friendly to people but you've now shown me who they all really are. Behind the fake smiles. What a shame.

They better hope they never need me for something. Ironically, I do give my immediate family a pass. Mostly.

It's been one hit after another. Now I see it's mere containment. But losing FP was a numb kind of gut punch. These hits used to have more power. I'd sometimes cry. But nothing surprises me anymore. Hell, I should have expected it. My shield is strong and it's this: you're a wonderful person who would never do anything wrong to anyone. If I know who in a given situation, then that's the case.

Some of you think this is all dribble to try to look like a sympathetic figure to sway you somehow. But there's no swaying you. There's no reasoning with you. I get it. It is all up to you though. My future is firmly in your hands. Hell, my very life is in your hands and I know it.

So there you have it. I'm helpless. you can either laugh like a psychopath and deliver the final blow or you can show some mercy and let me up. The choice is yours contrary to what you told my "friends". What you do tells me everything I need to know about you but I admit it gives me no power.

I won't as I said, fight you money or not. I stick to my word.

I'm going to grab the brass ring anyway and we'll see what you do. Choose wisely. I'm not threatening you at all. I'm just pointing out that you've got me. I surrender. My fists are down and my lips are sealed.

You win.

>>844747
>I was good hearted and just wanted friends
Could have just ended it there

>>844748
I guess so. Anyway, let me tell you a story.

There was a guy who had this terrible neighbor. He was always fucking with him. He'd do lots of little shit like wait til he went to work then pull his trash cans back up to his house before the garbage truck came so his garbage would build up. Shit like that. It went on for years.
After a while the guy started to try to figure out if he knew him and what kind of beef the guy could possibly have with him. He dug through official records about the guy to try to see if there was anything that somehow connected to him. Finally he found out that 30 years prior the guy had a sister who worked with him at a restaurant. He was like 24 and she was 16. She would always follow the guy around the kitchen standing right next to him and it got annoying. One day in a totally stupid moment of frustration when he was busy trying to make food orders, he just wanted her out of the way and so he smacked her on the ass a few times like she was a child being scolded and told her to go away.
Strange someone would hold a grudge for 30 years but at least he found a connection. He tracked the woman down and told her he was sorry and that afterwards he was too embarrassed to say sorry properly so he just played it off like it was some mildly sexual thing. Jokingly like "ah you liked it" like it was nothing. Anyway, she accepted his apology and was very nice about it. He didn't mention her brother.
He figured she'd talk to him and things would improve. But they only got worse. The guys antics got so bad that to make a long story short, the guy loses his job because of it and his wife and eventually even his car. He has to move in with his elderly parents and work a shit job washing dishes at 55 years old.
A few years later the neighbor runs a local contest. The prize was enough money to buy a house and car. If he won it he could turn his life around.
So he enters the contest. As he reads through the rules and related material, his former neighbor seemed to have included little references to him and the situation with his sister and the house. But the man was desperate so he worked on the contest day and night and was in a good position to win it.
The end of the contest was coming up soon and the guy was about to send in his solution. Then he stopped to think."Should I really trust this motherfucker? What's the catch?"

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>>844780
Sounds like the neighbor had a good life prior to meeting the other neighbor, but you know I would have probably done a similar thing if I found that out. Serves them both right, especially the one who smacked the other one's sister's ass.
>"ah you liked it"
People are so obnoxious, they will straight up sexually assault somebody and then pretend that it's justifiable, because of whatever fake social reasons they invent on the spot. Like, no bro, get some fucking manners, you don't go around smacking women's asses just because you think you're some hot shyt and they might enjoy it. Disrespectful mfs like that should be smacked around themselves, but by someone much bigger and multiple times. Open palm smack to the cheek for example. Till they get mild brain damage, but do this like 4 weeks in a row, that would teach them some manners, fucking imbeciles.

>>844781
Fairly clueless response. Or you didn't read the comment close enough.

You think tormenting someone for years and driving them into poverty for something from 30 years ago even when the guy apologized is what the guy "deserved"? Fuck you. Straight up. Fuck you.

The girl wasn't hurt. There were no bruises or hospitalization. Her life wasn't ruined. And no, I'm not defending the guys action. He admits it was wrong. The mere fact that you think such an incredible over reaction is justified tells me everything I need to know about the average person in society.

If you READ the comment you'll see that the guy didn't do it because he thought she'd enjoy it. He did it because she was annoying him but was too embarrassed to say sorry so he played it off like that when she talked to him about it later. Again that was 30 fucking years ago,. If you think the guy hasn't matured in 30 fucking years you're a moron.

By the way, way to miss the point of the story which is after taking all that shit from the neighbor who held a grudge about his sister from 30 fucking years earlier, he should trust the guy now all of the sudden?

I tell you what. I've talked to a lot of people over the years and explained a number of scenarios. Here's what I found out about the average person: They, like you, think that any wrong anyone has ever done should be held over that persons head for the rest of their lives. Meanwhile, they treat people like shit themselves (probably due to some 'wrong' they think they know about them) yet never consider that doing that is a wrong they are committing. So I hereby throw it back at all of you. None of you are forgiven by me for anything you have ever done in your entire lives. You are ALL pieces of worthless dogshit who deserve to be treated like trash until the day you die and I'm going to begin to do so. How do you like a taste of your own medicine assholes?

I came on here to make a few specific points about a very few issues because it matters. But it's like trying to talk quantum physics with a dog. And that's society. Sadly. You search for any way that you can point to that makes you better than someone else. Then hang on to that for life.

You: That guy over there is apiece of shit.
Friend: Why? What did he do?
You: He smacked this 16 year old girls ass.
Friend: When did he do that?
You: 1947
Friend: That son of a bitch! Let's fuck him over again!

Oh fuck you. Fuck all of you.

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>>844787
Oh. This is additional information I didn't originally have. In this light I agree with you, the neighbor was mostly innocent, it was the other neighbor that should have the fire of hell rain down upon him. Just your text alone made me think he was insufficiently punished (I don't think life itself is punishment enough for people like that) and should definitely be punished more.

What do you think would be the most just resolution to the situation?

I'm not against you by the way, I'm just a curious bystander who had an insufficient picture. If anything, this newest information is making me positively outraged.

>>844787
You know something else. I spent my life trying to communicate with people. trying to exp-lain things about me and about my life. Say I had some relationship issue and I gained some valuable insight about it and I wanted to share it with people so they could maybe learn something from it. Things like that.
My friends mattered to me and I always wanted a girlfriend or wife who could relate to me and actually cared about me. I wrote lyrics for several bands and that was almost always the purpose of the song. To communicate something I found valuable to know about life. But it's all pearls before swine. It's talking physics with a dog.
None of you are what I thought you were. You're all barely human. Unworthy of the very insights I was trying to convey and incapable of giving a shit out them or recognizing them as having any value.
But fucking someone else over and seething in your hate for them over relatively minor infractions (as if you're all saints yourselves) THAT you do understand and find value in. You're pathetic and not worth even talking to.

In fact there's no point even posting on social media. You're all like robots. You're AI can mimic a conscious human but inside it's just switches. There really isn't anyone home at all.

What a god damned shame.

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>>844789
Sir. We can clearly see that we are getting in sync, I'm starting to see it from your perspective. Furthermore we have even posted at the exact same time.

My dear fellow human, I do not condemn you even if it was you that smacked that girl's ass. Truly, please don't go into the dark corners of no forgiveness, I forgive you just like Jesus Christ our Lord has forgiven all of us. If you don't forgive you will only see the anger at yourself, because to hold on to that energy is to continue living it. You're never angry at another you are only angry at yourself for keeping the memory of that person active.

Good sir, I asked for your apology. I made a miscalculation and I regarded your neighbor with more harshness than he really deserved. I think it was just a mistake that he made very long ago. The way he has been treated by the other neighbor is inexcusable. Nobody deserves that even if he actually did smack her ass in any kind of more devious way than the final conclusion by you suggests. Hell, I have seen people kiss others without consent or permission while millions are watching on TV. Should those people be forever punished for that? Jim Carrey. He has delivered such great delight to so many people around the world and he has in some ways even exposed Illuminati and the fact that the Illuminati are active in Hollywood right now. I think we should not be too quick to judge a person and so the very same way I ask you to not be too quick to judge me just from that one message, the original miscalculation, the original misjudgment by me of your whole neighbor situation. I'm sorry if you think that I represent the average person in society. It was never my intention to do that for you. If anything I consider myself completely outside of mainstream society. Do you think a mainstream person would apologize so profusely after being scolded so badly for almost nothing? Let's be real, I'm here to acknowledge your suffering and I'm here to recognize where you're coming from despite the harsh treatment. Because I was once a man like you and it was extremely hard for me to let go of the constant need I felt for, well, frankly killing people and going to war. And war can be waged in many ways. It is not my intention to go to war with you or to go to war with almost anyone. If anything, I would like to go to war with science and technology and stuff like that. Or perhaps a person I highly admire who then could perhaps kill me. I wouldn't want to be killed by some random nigger or a low life or a strawberry of some sort. And that same way, I do not seek war and this is why I am writing this message to you because the issues you have raised I think are important and I am doing my best to see it from your perspective and I am doing my best to make peace with you, because I recognize how radicalized you have become and what evil things can come from it not only to those around you but especially to you yourself. Again, a lack of forgiveness is always and 100% a lack of forgiveness for oneself. Please do not hold on to that energy which you yourself describe as something that you do not prefer. If you actually preferred it, you would be only appreciative and thankful for it, there would be nothing to forgive. Since you see there being something to forgive it means you do not appreciate it and you do not prefer it. So my suggestion is, do not hold on to it. You don't have to forget, but you do have to forgive. I forgive you sir for the harsh treatment that I have received from you. Furthermore I want to be your friend. Or at the very least I would like to avoid any kind of clashing with you, because I respect you as a warrior. Many things can be classified as war and while I have my particular love for war, I choose very carefully who and what to go to war with If anyone or anything at all.

God bless you sir, may Christ adorn your path with primroses

I love you, I forgive you, I appreciate you

>>844790
That's fine man. No hard feelings. Thing is I was here to discuss whether I should trust someone who fucked me over for an incredibly long length of time and who now expects me to trust them.

We got sidelined into some other areas due to what I think was a slight misreading of what I wrote. In any case, as you can tell I'm extremely disappointed in humanity as a whole. And it's not some religious thing. I find Christians are some of the worst people in regards to what I'm talking about but it's certainly not confined to them at all.

They're supposed to be forgiving yet most are just as eager to spread gossip about someone when they hear it as anyone else.

I have to say that I can't relate to your desire to go to war. I don't know where that comers from but I'm glad that you are aware of it and are dealing with it. I also take exception to your use of the "N" word. In my opinion the word should only be used in lighthearted comedic context. Such humor should not be intended to insult the race but simply be ridiculous in nature.

The reason is that the word carries a dehumanizing meaning with it and implies the person is automatically less than a white person. In my life I find this to be untrue. While thug type blacks certainly exist, they are not indicative of the race as a whole and not all of them are criminals or low lifes.

I don't know if you've ever had any black friends or not or where you live/grew up but that makes a huge difference. The blacks I have been friends with were not thugs and were some of my very best friends in the world.

But back to the topic at hand. The ways that I've been fucked over by people over the years have been so despicable that nothing really justifies it. Yes, I've done a few really dumb things and even disrespectful things in my life, but they were few and far between and I've done everything I can to make amends. And all of that was 20 to 30 years ago. YEARS. Not months. Fucking YEARS. And STILL the motherfuckers won't let it go.

There is literally no legitimate reason for that and there is no argument they can make that would justify it. 100% they are the bad guys and I am a victim at this point. And Yes, I did smack the girl on the ass but the neighbor set up in my story was just to simplify the story so I could tell it in few words.

Anyway, there is much more to the story and I don't wish to discuss any further details but the bottom line is: Should I trust the guy and his friends now? After all the bullshit?

I think of that snake story Trump used to tell at his rallies. Yeah, I know they are snakes. So I'm gonna get bit.

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>>844792
I'll leave it up to you to decide how you want to use the word nigger or not use it at all, but forgot's sake don't say the N-word. That just makes me think you are a retard and not worth talking to at all.

That aside obviously I cannot advise you on the level of trust you should bestow upon the other neighbor or his cronies. Because the picture is incomplete and you have to trust your gut on this, but obviously it shouldn't be 100% unconditional trust.

Now, regarding Christ, yes of course most Christians are scum, however Christ was King and his actions absolutely elevate the Christendom so you may have your gripes with us, but it is undeniable what a beautiful man, what a beautiful energy it is to believe in the goodness of love that Christ taught. It's like a jewel shining amidst a dark and broken world, a pure light that warms the soul and guides every step we take toward grace.

As for lack of faith in humanity, well, sir, friend, we all have our personal relationship with it. I'm afraid I cannot advise you on that, however I can say that I go through some of the same dilemmas sometime. So perhaps I wouldn't be the one to convince you to love humanity, but what I can say is that without humanity there's very little reason for us to be here in the first place in my opinion. I guess, try to find pockets You can feel like giving to and you can feel like deserve your service and your energy. Kids are one such obvious place. Whether you have your own or the kids of others. They haven't had yet the time probably to become utter scum either internally or through action. Or I don't know, I guess you can live with and take care of animals, stuff like that. But humans are a little bit more interesting in some ways. You say you love niggers, that's kind of the middle ground in some ways, maybe you can try to improve their ways. And when I say niggers of course I don't mean only the sub-Saharans. There are many people here that if you truly believe in them, you can do good things towards them and not because you are looking for thankfulness either. Maybe you just love them that way. Good luck, sir, I know you don't believe in Christ and I know atheism doesn't exist either, so please choose your faith carefully and make sure it's not Islam or Judism, but bear in mind whatever you choose will have a profound effect on your life. Christ is gracious and Christ is Great. Other ones I can recommend would be perhaps the teachings of dao and shinto. Stay away from satanism or anything that makes you give too much importance on the self (or makes you agrandize yourself), because it's actually a trap. I'm not saying all of your life has to be just service and nothing else, but if it doesn't make sense to your heart and if it makes you feel heavy and self-important, it's probably not the way.

Yeah, war is a brutal dirty business and DEFINITELY not for everyone, but the funny thing is that even though I'm attracted to it perhaps a little bit more than the average person I actually engage in it much less. Very few people realize what they are doing, but they are constantly engaging in war and the thing about that is that any war is total war. The funniest thing I see is when women engage in war when I know they would crumble in half a second if and when things got actually real. People are so fucking stupid. None of you are ready for war and yet almost all of you posture and pose as if you are not only ready but would dominate in the battlefield. The battlefield is not only kinetic, far from it, if anything it is a battle of the intellects especially at this time. It's a brutal business and if you go there you better expect to die. Yet all of these imbeciles and I swear to God the funniest thing is the women, they go to war and they neither expect to get killed nor to get defeated (and defeat is the only thing that's sure in a war, yes even if you're victorious). Anyway, you said you're not interested in war, so that's just a little tangent for myself I guess. I am slightly interested, but I'm very non-war-like compared to pretty much anyone around me. Maybe because I respect war. And I recognize things for what they are. Just because it's a small thing doesn't mean it's not war, because all war leads to the same thing which is total war. Anyway...

>>844794
Whether you know it or not, your reply reads like an op designed to entrap someone into triggering certain words and phrases so that the gov can label them as an extremist.

That's sad if it's true because the whole point of the conversation was about trust and how shitty people are these days. And doing that would be a perfect example.

First off you scold me for not using the N word, and appeal to me desire not to be known as a retard. Later you make a false claim (knowing I'll wan to correct you) that I "love" N words. This of course is a gross exaggeration because I don't consider the two very close black friends I was talking about to be N's. So I'm supposed to come back and something like "I don;t love, N's" Only I'm expected to spell it out so the government can say that I used the N word and said I don't love them.

Not nice. What should I think of a government who would try to do that to me? Should I like them? Should I trust them? Should I think they are good people?

If that wasn't bad enough, you go on to use the controversial phrase about someone being King. This phrase has (rightly or wrongly) been identified as a phrase used to identify what the government refers to as Christian Nationalists and/or White Nationalists. I'm not going to debate the terms or if those are actually problem groups or not. That's not the point. The point is that the government views them as problem groups. But cleverly you instead of saying he is King you said he was King, prompting me to correct your use of the phrase. That way even if I don't agree with the phrase, I'm likely to use it anyway when I correct you. That way the government can say I used the phrase and label me a Christian Nationalist.

If only you could only get me to say something good about war you can label me as a violent extremist. I wondered why you even brought this up to begin with as it was unrelated to our conversation. I then wondered why you spent so much time talking about war and being a warrior and all of that.

Notice how all of this is outside of the subject matter of whether I should trust the people I was talking about in the first place. So you've managed to sideline the conversation into another set of topics that I was not here to discuss rather than having a discussion with me about the topic I came here to discuss.

I can't say for sure with 100% certainty that this is what you were doing and that you work for some government agency for this purpose or what but if you look back through your reply with what I said in mind, you'll see how suspicious it looks.

That's sad. I was looking for some advice and conversation about trusting people and instead I got a trap. This reinforces my distrust of the various government agencies and their programs to slander or bad jacket individual citizens. How sleazy. How despicable.

Don't bother writing back. I'm done here. I don't know why I thought I might be able to vent on here and maybe get some advice or at least sympathy for the issue I came here to discuss. Oh well. I guess I have my answer about trust anyway.

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I'm not sure where to post this but it has to be anonymous. I'm going to leave a bunch of stuff out and I'm not hanging around to read the replies. I just have to get a few minor things off my chest.

None of this is embarrassing. And I am happy and in a best part of my life so far.

So here's the very basic back story. I married this woman 10 years ago. She had two kids 11 and 13 years old. I loved her throat and I loved them kids like puppies being mistreated by their father. Granted I only married and lived with her for 5 years but that was enough time for me to really feel like I had a family and I contributed to the good health and well-being those kids. So much so they would have truly shitty lives had I not come around.

I never look at their facebook, ever, and don't give a fuck how they are. But I can imagine how it would be to find out that one of them has died.

I'd shrug my shoulders and forget about it the next minute. Even my favorite kid who I remember her at 11 coming around dinner time and asking if we wanted to watch Dr. Pimple Popper on YouTube with her. She was the best kid you could ask for as a "parent" and her brother was a bit of a twat; but that is really his father and mother's fault. It was a weight off my shoulders and soul when I divorced that slam pig. I miss spraying semen on her vocal chords. And if any of them died, throat fucking her limp GHB doused skull until she got petechial hemorrhaging across her face is really all I would dwell on. Maybe even that time I had to give her a sharp chest compression to heart going again. <my dick is so hard now>

I know it was a long time ago and we didn't talk after, not even once. I never gave any of them anything after the divorce; I figure the couple of hundred grand they cost me over the marriage and the seventeen thousand the mother straight up stole was more than enough. They all know better to even ask.

So I took the day off today and welcomed in my new foster puppy. My elderly aunt wants a large dog; but a large rambunctious puppy makes for too big of a fall risk her.

Now, I will keep him, Rex, for 18-24 months. Until he calms down and I have him very well trained to behave gently and at commands. He is so super smart that this will be relatively easy and That tears me up.

So I am not going to waste time on some shit that happened and I have let go of. Why would I saddle myself with the trauma when there is nothing to be gained by myself of the family i use to have. Why?

I am making heaven on earth and you'll be a sad cunt if you keep holding on to that old useless shit. Anon if you'd pulled your head out of your ass, That would be so great. I'd be so happy to see you here in the present knowing that you are ok.