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Eeyore 16/02/23(Tue)17:34 No. 4771 ID: 31485d
4771

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Talk about your crush and why you won't be together.


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Xiaobi 16/02/23(Tue)23:41 No. 4772 ID: c4a7d8

>>4771
'Cos she is straight.


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Eeyore 16/02/28(Sun)09:03 No. 4779 ID: 759123
4779

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I hate being cheesy, but this is really the only place I can put my feelings out there for others to see.

I have a very hard time connecting to people. I like to think I'm not awkward, the opposite I think. I'm extremely confident of myself and assertive, but I just can't allow myself to break the wall when it comes to making friends...If you know what I mean.

Same goes for relationships. I'll meet someone who I think I can really connect with; They'll like the things I like, have the same humor and personality, yet I can't bring myself to know them better. I've been on plenty of dates, but I always chicken out when it comes to intimacy. They give me a couple more chances, but realize that I won't let them in, and give up on me.

/autistic blog post.


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Eeyore 16/02/28(Sun)21:31 No. 4784 ID: ed9518

>>4771
Because I'm a shit and she knows.


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Eeyore 16/03/01(Tue)00:18 No. 4791 ID: 98b286

>being close enough to someone to develop feelings for them


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Eeyore 16/03/01(Tue)23:46 No. 4793 ID: 7141eb

she isn't my crush but I wouldn't mind seeing her again, but i don't know her name and she doesn't know mine


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Eeyore 16/03/05(Sat)08:32 No. 4796 ID: 8f867a

We will.


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Eeyore 16/03/09(Wed)21:06 No. 4798 ID: 3762e8

>>4796
Either by will or force.


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Eeyore 16/04/07(Thu)05:52 No. 4840 ID: 218dda

I'm dating my crush!


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Eeyore 16/04/10(Sun)02:31 No. 4842 ID: 8fd27f

>>4771
She's a nice person. Moderately talkative, rational, clever, interested in culture and literature, rather right-leaning as far as I know, wants to become a furniture restorer/designer. Her smile is something I want to protect. She looks like she's shining when she smiles and laughs.

She's also, well, a boy. A trans-boy. I can't build a family with him, so a long-time relationship can't happen. He's also dating the girl I introduced to him last Summer.

It can't be helped. I'll still try my best to make her happy from the sidelines.


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Eeyore 16/04/10(Sun)02:43 No. 4843 ID: 47cd20

>>4771
I tried getting closer, starting conversation, but she didn't show much interest and i'm an colder guy, i wont play any games or keep on insisting.
Beside that, our common "friend" said she start seeing someone else. She's my teacher, i'm 28 and she's 26, we'll be seeing each other for 3 years...idk how i'll handle that...


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Eeyore 16/04/10(Sun)06:33 No. 4844 ID: 98407e

The only time I ever had a crush, I think I idealized her as someone who could be what I needed in a girl, someone dominant and maybe a little sadistic, sexually. Really, she was just a girl with her head on just a bit more securely than me, who was looking for the same thing in a guy. And since even back then my identity was completely fucked and I wound up being a chick, I just failed on all fronts with her.


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Eeyore 16/04/14(Thu)06:11 No. 4860 ID: 1e02df

This belongs on rage and bawww.


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Eeyore 16/04/15(Fri)18:15 No. 4863 ID: 547d57

>>4860
Unless they murdered their crush in a heart-crushing accident or fit of madness, otherwise agreed.


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Eeyore 16/06/01(Wed)07:22 No. 4926 ID: 8f867a

She used to love me..thought I was the greatest. now she thinks i'm crazy and doesnt want much to do with me.

She says she 'still cares about me' but i dont think she thinks much of me.


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Eeyore 16/06/04(Sat)21:04 No. 4928 ID: 8720eb
4928

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Very recently I have realised that I have feelings toward a guy. He's slender and has feminine features but we are just good friends and colleagues. I have always been against allowing myself to accumulate such feelings and have been strongly opposed to homosexuality.
It feels so ridiculous, I'm in a constant state of turmoil. Sometimes I just stare at him for a really long time. I just feel like holding him close. I don't know what to do. It's already beginning to cloud my good judgement.

I want to fight this, but it just becomes more and more difficult as the days go by.
I've given myself the summer to extinguish this. I don't know what I would do if I fail.


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Eeyore 16/06/04(Sat)21:38 No. 4929 ID: 8720eb

>>4779

Relationships aren't for everyone. Stay safe, prepare yourself for all eventualities.


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Eeyore 16/06/07(Tue)09:00 No. 4930 ID: 0d5218

>>4928
For all the bullshit SJWs peddle, they are right that sexuality is a spectrum. Your friend is feminine and you are a little appreciative of men. Big whup, you don't have to be gay if you don't want to, you don't have to bury your meat in his ass to still be friends. Consider if some of your feelings are motivated by thirst and transference, does he help you with your problems? Don't throw away having a genetic heir because your friend looks like a girl (which is heterosexual) and you're feeling like you'll never get laid. Consider also if you would have even thought about your friend this way if we lived in a society where homosexuality was unknown. You could also be craving male affection if you had a distant father, but a hug is not a cock remember. Also, your angsting about this could just be an anxiety disorder and not a suppressed urge.


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Eeyore 16/06/07(Tue)15:41 No. 4931 ID: a4d471

>>4930
I just don't understand this, I haven't felt this way before. Not toward guys, not toward girls, it's just new to me. It's just him.
I'm not a very socially active person. In fact, I am extremely anxious and have an avoidant personality. I've never been intimate with anyone and I really do not know what to do.
It's not like he makes me feel incredibly special or he's very attractive; he isn't even extremely feminine in the way he looks or anything, just a bit of an oddball.
Even though he's slightly younger than me, he's my boss, and I feel kind of protective of him. I sort of feel like his right hand man on this great project he's working on.
Maybe he has instilled something of a purpose in me.
I just don't know.


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Eeyore 16/06/11(Sat)09:05 No. 4935 ID: 93a320

>>4931
This definitely doesn't sound like homo to me, but I've ran out of anything remotely insightful to say.

If it's a feeling of fuck yeah when you're around him, I've had shit like that, it's the feeling of doing something meaningful with a friend. Or at least the illusion of it, because kek, last time I had it was in college.


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Ariel 16/06/11(Sat)11:48 No. 4936 ID: 3e778b

>>4931
You're just good friends.
I think it makes you feel good to be around him and pass time with him.
Your sexual excitement also comes from your will to repress it.
You know what? Fuck everything and just live your feelings. You have only one life.
And if you feel you can trust this person just say to him what you feel when you're sure enough of your feelings.


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Eeyore 16/10/29(Sat)16:37 No. 5131 ID: ee1e58

because shes with someone and hes a much better option


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Eeyore 16/10/31(Mon)10:07 No. 5141 ID: 700de0

Because im too much of a pussy to even ask her out.


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Eeyore 16/11/01(Tue)00:30 No. 5142 ID: c8555b

because she doesn't love me back

why the fuck am i still alive


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Eeyore 16/11/02(Wed)12:14 No. 5144 ID: 1f2240

My crush has DID. He loves me, but one of his alternate personalities does not like me. I'm pretty sure he hates me, in fact. The alter likes another girl. My crush believes that this alter can make better decisions for him, so he'll probably go for that other fucking bitch.

I'd like to eliminate the competition.
I won't lose him.


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Eeyore 17/01/29(Sun)20:59 No. 5291 ID: ac3026
5291

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Because I'm an idiot, I had her for one year at my feet, eating from my fucking hand, and I've treated her wrong from the very beginning. Not smart enough to enter at the university in the city she's in for studying now, applied to another one in another city. Now I'm sitting here, drowning in pussy and alcohol but I can't forget her, it's already been 5 months and I haven't had 3 consecutive days without dreaming about her. When I'm at school, I imagine going home to her and telling her what I've learned for the day. I love you, duckling, I always will.


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Eeyore 17/02/02(Thu)05:31 No. 5295 ID: f5149d
5295

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I fucked up. I know exactly what to do to redeem myself but I'm too depressed.

who the fuck in the right mind would love a miserable broken man


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Mee 17/02/04(Sat)04:46 No. 5298 ID: 2e1d8f

Because I was her first. I am old, she is young. We were together for 5 years, and engaged for 2 of them. 3 months before we were going to marry, she confessed that she was seeing someone else.

I love her, but her happiness meant more to me than life itself, so I let her go.

Tori, I confess here because I dare not say it to you now: even if I fade from your memory, I won't stop loving you. You are still the first thing I think of when I wake, and the last thought I have before falling asleep. I will live out my days in this empty house, only just a phone call away, and I promise not to hurt myself again. I was your first; you are my last.

It will be one year on the 15th of this month.


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Eeyore 17/02/08(Wed)14:35 No. 5300 ID: 9cfe1e

She lives across the atlantic. (I'm not really interested in debating whether or not you can fall for someone you've never met, but I've never felt like this with my exes, she's blown them out of the water)

And at this point she's more or less forgotten about me. We still talk a bunch but it's not like it was before. Maybe it's time constraints (read below)

The circumstances we met were pretty sad. I was hammered and I was pretty set on gassing myself that night and in some attempt (you can call it attention seeking if you like, I don't care, but people desperately want to be saved, no matter how low they get) I reached out and we met through a certain website, she talked me down, spoke to me for hours. We were both very depressed, suicidal, but mine was more imminent.

We were there for eachother for over a year. Until she got better. My life has stayed the same, but opportunities popped up for her and now she's flying. Constantly busy, doing what she loves, has always wanted to do and loving it. It doesn't feel like a job, but 'Indulging in funtime', she says. Genuinely, I am happy for her.


She'll never ever go for me. Not a chance. Even excluding the logistical issues of that, no chance. I'll just never be able to compete with the people she rolls with now.



IMPORTANT:

It's not at all lost on me that my attachment to her comes from the circumstances we met. That HAS to have warped my perception of her, and of any feelings I have toward her. Surely?

But I have no idea how to get rid of this, short of telling her, getting shot down and potentially decimating the friendship we have.

And I really, really don't want to do that.


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Eeyore 17/02/09(Thu)07:07 No. 5303 ID: ddc2e8

>>5300
>I have no idea how to get rid of this, short of telling her, getting shot down and potentially decimating the friendship we have

Tell her, but don't tell her in a way that makes her feel obligated to reciprocate. Tell her how you feel and why you think you feel that way, and that you have to let this out because it is eating at you, not that you expect anything from her. She can't shoot you down if you aren't coming on to her, and it might be good for your mental health to make your feelings known.

You might even be able to move on.


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Eeyore 17/02/10(Fri)14:07 No. 5304 ID: d6afea

>>5300
Have you tried fucking a dozen of other girls and see if she's still special?


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Eeyore 17/02/10(Fri)21:27 No. 5307 ID: f027eb

been friends for about 5 years. First 2 years we were super tight, best friends. Then we went to different schools and kept in touch via text and shit but saw each other in person just a few times a year. Used to talk literally all day, not maybe once or twice a week. Shes suoer poplar and outgoing and pretty and literally just the best person and you can probaly gather all you need to know about me based off the fact that im hanging out in /grim/. MAybe I'll at least get to be friends with her again, but all i know is tht this feeling sucks and I wish I could move on and just be done with these awful feeling I have because of out fleeting friendship.


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Eeyore 17/02/12(Sun)01:59 No. 5308 ID: c8b111

>>5303

Thanks for the response. I will do it.. one day, I just don't think I can do it right now if the worst case scenario plays out.

>>5304

It really isn't about sex.


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Eeyore 17/02/12(Sun)23:51 No. 5310 ID: 953ac3

I used her


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Eeyore 17/02/15(Wed)12:54 No. 5312 ID: 7c95ac

>>5308
Don't ignore >>5304's point lightly. You might not think it's about sex, but you'd be surprised how sex can change things for you. It doesn't have to be dozens of girls--it typically takes two: one girl to sleep with while you think about the girl you still have feelings for, and another girl after that to remember that you can move on.


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Eeyore 17/03/11(Sat)06:40 No. 5338 ID: 03bf92

>>4771
She's dead, Jim.


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Eeyore 17/08/27(Sun)05:41 No. 5538 ID: 85cdae

>>4771
She doesn't exist.

I have a very specific 'energy' I'm attracted

I am yet to find someone like that.

It is the only thing keeping me observant, and not
fucking myself to hell on heroin


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Eeyore 17/09/12(Tue)14:12 No. 5549 ID: 9c374d

dumped me (x2.5) (100% rate)
does having sex make you a normie?
I was really stressed out. I can cum like 3 times alone and keep steady bloodflow! but I lasted forever hardly felt anything and basically forced myself to cum. no rubber because nihilism
I pushed away a fellow nihilistic fuckbot-in-training b/c I wanted to talk about feelings and she used pussy as a distraction. I don't talk to anybody at all anymore. 2 years. girls suck. my boyfriend moved and we never got physical. im covered in hair and fat and regret. people like me because I remind them of their shithead knockoff older-brother counselor from summer camp they distinctly remember looking at their malnourished teen ass who if they'd just had a little longer to get to know... it'd be running behind the scenes and finding the director doing heroin with the sound editor & producer. they insist this is HOW MOVIES GET MADE KIDDO. sorry kiddo
anybody think of anything nonviolent I can do to leave a lasting impact on the world... I feel like I discredit causes by joining up with em. fundamental lack of integrity


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Eeyore 17/09/15(Fri)21:26 No. 5551 ID: e4a93b

>>4771
She's a 2D character


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Eeyore 17/09/25(Mon)08:38 No. 5553 ID: 7baec4

>>5538
I feel similarly too. I have yet to find someone I like, since all the people I know seem to have one, however, the people here are complete schlubs and the only person I would remotely consider is related to me.


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Eeyore 17/09/28(Thu)03:28 No. 5555 ID: c37fdf

She planned her life. She was smarter. She was more active. She came from a middle class family. She had connections. She did well in school. She moved on. She is successful now.

I had no clue what I wanted to do. I coasted through life. I was largely incompetent. I was mentally ill. My family couldn't live with each other. I never even knew my father. I neglected my priorities. I became broke. Almost destitute. I have to rely on the goodwill of others. I am unsuccessful.


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Eeyore 17/10/11(Wed)03:53 No. 5566 ID: ff57d8

She's moving back home.

We both started at the same company last year. First job out of college, I was 29 and she was 22. Being engineers I found a group amiable to lunch time card games (Bang!, Nuclear War, Bohnanza, etc.) and she was part of that. This Summer she asked for a ride on my Motorcycle. Seemed like a good indicator for this rather shy guy. Said and acted like she had a good time and wanted to go again, but turned down the invites I made the 2nd and 4th weeks following that.
No point being upset over it. And no point being the creepy/clingy weirdo at work so I let it be.
Today I was decided to take a quick walk around the plant and asked if she would like to join me. She said "sure!" But on the walk she confided that she had just accepted a job offer the next state over. I told her 'Congrats and good luck'. And I do hope the best for her.
It was just a little crush after all. No more, no less..


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Eeyore 17/10/24(Tue)19:44 No. 5576 ID: 686bf7

>>4771
I've had limited interaction with her, and yet I'm madly in love. There's absolutely nothing that would lead us to spend more time together. I've tried approaching her, just to catch up and chat, and she acts distant and apathetic towards me. I see her laughing and enjoying life with others, but not with me. Only an emotionless facade.


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Eeyore 17/10/29(Sun)14:35 No. 5582 ID: 4ed2a6

Because she's a fictional character.


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Eeyore 17/11/01(Wed)02:37 No. 5587 ID: a24704

Not soon. She lives 7600 kilmometres away.


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Eeyore 18/07/07(Sat)09:03 No. 5845 ID: 957d2f

>>5300

time flies. this was me. i told her in the end, we no longer speak. that kinda sucks cause i do feel like i lost a really good friend but we were drifting apart towards the end and instead of missing her for longer and longer periods until she'd 'remember bout me' again, i wanted to get it off my chest/'/know/' (instead of like, living with regret, always wondering.)

in retrospect i see i build that girl up on a pedestal, she was nothing special, i just idealised her because she was the first person to show me kindness in a long and tough while.

I'm glad i can see myself loving someone else in the future (a case of oneitis is just dreadful, especially when it can never happen.

she's on my mind a lot tonight though, i still loved her afterall.


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Eeyore 18/07/08(Sun)21:11 No. 5846 ID: c2052e

i dont have a crush anymore, graduated highschool and professional school and haven't done shit.

Now im an aircraft mechanic with just guys on the workplace with the occasional butch.
I don't leave the house much to develop a crush for anyone now :/


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Eeyore 18/07/19(Thu)05:23 No. 5860 ID: 248200

She was my best friend
Was
I thought about it but she left before I could say anything. She left without saying a word.
After that a downspiral of recreating that bond. Even though this is 5 years old I think about her constantly but I'm just a forgotten memory to her, surely.


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Eeyore 18/08/05(Sun)20:09 No. 5872 ID: 2cc5fd

My crush was the love of my life, she cheated on me after five years and a proposal. It was six years ago now and Ibstill think of her everyday. I will always miss her. I still love you Anja.


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Eeyore 18/08/06(Mon)23:55 No. 5873 ID: 81c4d7

My story is probably worse because I actually am with the person who I actually believe is my soulmate. The reason i'm on the fence about an hero'ing is because I know I can't be the man she needs and thinks I am. In the past I had tried finding true love through sleeping around and being a manwhore. I'm not certain if that really had anything to do with my multiple betrayals though. You see, I hid the fact that I was Bi or at least desperate enough to let strange men fuck me in my past from her and when her sex drive petered down far below mine I found myself actively searching for other one night stands behind her back.
My first time cheating was emotional more than physical as it was omegle sexting with an older Canadian woman who's husband had also been withholding sex from her. The second one night stand was when I was out of town in a hotel for work and hooked up with a guy from craigslist and let him cum inside me multiple times that night while taking pictures. The third time I cheated was when I found another man on Grindr who was able to fuck my sadness out of me for a few weeks.
I don't know if it is weakness, or lack of trust but my soulmate has no idea any of this is even something I would consider. these moments happened during low points after big arguments in our relationship but that is not an excuse. I can't bring myself to tell her what i did for fear of hurting her more than i already have, yet oddly enough the only real thing stopping me from an hero'ing is the fact that I know how badly my suicide would scar and hurt her.


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Eeyore 18/09/20(Thu)17:00 No. 5896 ID: 718082

>>5873
You have an incredible amount of awareness compared to most wife-beating habitual cheaters.

I'd suggest getting couples-counselling. The counselor can act as a mediator, you can tell her how you don't feel good enough and also what happened. You won't be able to keep this relationship and keep your infidelity a secret forever. You know she can't trust you, and it reflects in how you carry your trust for her as well as being a nuclear warhead when she finds out. The counselor will help her work through her feelings, if she wants to stay, help her through her grief, and give you tools about feeling good enough and how to fix or weather a difference in sex drive.


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Eeyore 18/09/20(Thu)20:34 No. 5899 ID: 11de95

im bipolar bruh
i cant keep a best friend let alone a gf
raw deal my friend


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Eeyore 18/11/30(Fri)08:16 No. 5963 ID: a298be

We were together. And we were deeply in love. I asked her to marry me. Life was grand.
Or so I thought. One day she snapped, threw me out of the house, and revealed she wanted to get back with her ex. Everything crumbled around me in an instant.

That was 3 months ago. I've been an empty shell ever since.


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Eeyore 18/12/04(Tue)19:10 No. 5967 ID: 2958f4

I thought he was my friend, but he'll never care about me. Thinking about him and all the things we went through makes my stomach turn with a burning feeling, because all of that doesn't mean anything to him.
I just wish I could stop feeling this awful.


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Eeyore 18/12/19(Wed)09:26 No. 5978 ID: 346e8f
5978

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because he is a tranny that won't take testosterone, or improve his life in any meaningful way, and im not into dating and talking care of a depressed girl for the rest of my life. Also we are both really poor, and im sick with a chronic disease that makes gainful employment impossible.


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Eeyore 18/12/19(Wed)09:27 No. 5979 ID: 346e8f

>>5963
im sorry, anon.


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Eeyore 19/01/05(Sat)04:26 No. 5991 ID: 88576f

The girl I'm smitten with is happily in a relationship. We're still good friends and I'm not a piece of shit, so hopefully it'll stay that way without issue. I heard the song "Peach Scone" by Hobo Johnson for the first time the other day, it really captures the experience of being in this position I think.

The girl I'm talking to now is exhibiting all the red flags that stopped me from trying with girls in the past. I'm forcing myself to keep going in an attempt to break down old insecurities, but I'm terribly afraid that at the end of the day the only thing I'm going to find out is that I was right all along, and that all I did by not listening to my gut was wasting time.


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Eeyore 19/01/09(Wed)05:27 No. 5995 ID: 909724

>>5979

Thanks..me too.
She's everything I've ever wanted in a woman. And she's gone now. Probably killing myself soon, tbh.


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Eeyore 19/01/11(Fri)19:20 No. 5997 ID: 769f2a

I loved him. He realized and took advantage of me. I didn’t want that, I wanted him to like me back. To have feelings too. I was wrong. I should have known better.


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Eeyore 19/02/28(Thu)20:20 No. 6021 ID: 53a6d3

>>4793
Please try and find her on social media, I'm sure you will eventually.


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imo sent sms all show MD RIYAJ AHAMED RAJ 19/02/28(Thu)21:11 No. 6024 ID: af201b
6024

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imo sent sms all show


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Eeyore 19/03/18(Mon)06:24 No. 6052 ID: eb3116

>>4771
She just doesn't fucking like me no matter what I do, or who I am.


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Eeyore 19/05/17(Fri)18:00 No. 6100 ID: ef8f75

She's nothing special objectively, but to me she's everything. The thought of her in my head makes me feel things that i cant describe, but I know that if I stop putting her on a pedestal and thinking so highly of her i'll get together with her just as quick as all her past ex's, and leave her equally as quick. Its not that im ugly or awkward or dumb, im the opposite of all that. There is nothing wrong with me, except the absolute state of my crippling mental health. Why am I like this? Why is this girl so meaningful to me? And now that she is, why cant i just make a move? I dont think im afraid of failure - maybe just dissapointment.


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Eeyore 19/05/20(Mon)20:00 No. 6103 ID: 488b9f

1. She's a celebrity
2. I have a live hate relationship with her
3. I'm a sick degenerate
4. I have mental health diagnosis and live on benefits


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Eeyore 19/05/22(Wed)21:51 No. 6107 ID: 60d009

>>6052
Same here. When I met her she was interested in a friend in common. I started liking her ways and became my crush. I was with someone else, a toxic relationship. She became a close friend and it just doesn't matter what I do, She just doesn't like me like that. I'm average looking and I have been in short relationships, but I want _her_.


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Eeyore 19/05/26(Sun)18:49 No. 6110 ID: e5c21f

because I'm an insecure sperg and a coward


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Eeyore 19/08/11(Sun)12:35 No. 6155 ID: 5f7e52

>>4771
She was my teacher 7 years ago.
I try to contact her sometimes but she never answers. I haven't thought about anything else since leaving school. I lock myself in my room all day and imagine scenarios in which we're together


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Eeyore 19/08/12(Mon)06:58 No. 6159 ID: 0fe709

she's too young


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Eeyore 19/08/15(Thu)00:13 No. 6161 ID: eeabed

Because she is cheerful and loves to go out and I'm maimed by a skin disease.


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Eeyore 19/08/18(Sun)22:43 No. 6168 ID: 1c042d

My yoga instructor. Gorgeous redhead, good friends, a beautiful person. She knows I'm crazy about her. But... I'm already married for 29 years. Sure as hell not gonna screw that up. And she has kids so double forget it. Did the next best thing and made her second beneficiary on my life insurance. (I'm 15 years older)


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Eeyore 19/09/05(Thu)21:26 No. 6183 ID: 602f4c

Whos lurking here?


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Eeyore 19/09/06(Fri)22:23 No. 6184 ID: 7baa17
6184

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>>6183
Me


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Eeyore 19/09/18(Wed)23:01 No. 6193 ID: c35c98

because you can't make someone like you


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Eeyore 19/10/08(Tue)08:00 No. 6215 ID: 304bc4

never had a crush


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Eeyore 20/07/19(Sun)06:56 No. 6492 ID: 401354

I haven't been with a woman in 6 years. Loneliness just gets worse and worse. I'm starting to accept that I may never have sex again. Some days I think I'd be better off castrated and in a monastery.


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Eeyore 20/07/20(Mon)04:53 No. 6493 ID: 0d868f

Less "crush" and more "only person I can see myself hooking up with since I'm too socially inept for anyone else".

Anyway, she's an autist. And nearly all female autists, especially the tomboys, have been brainwashed into becoming a dyke or asexual (the latter, in her case) thanks to all the "ugh men" shit plaguing circles where non-normalfag women gather. This is only catalyzed by their own experiences with men, since the only men who flirt with them are complete tactless retards (attractive men can aim higher, autists with some tact fear rejection too much to bother). So either they turn to other women to try to get their rocks off, or they can't force it and just declare themselves asexual instead. Even though both types still get off to fictional men.

But at least she didn't end up an FTM.


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Eeyore 20/07/27(Mon)04:05 No. 6494 ID: db30e8

She used to be really into, I had been in love with her for more than 2 years but I also had a girlfriend so I rejected her.
3 years later she has moved on and I still love her, I broke up with my girlfriend a year ago.


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Eeyore 20/08/01(Sat)13:49 No. 6497 ID: da3026
6497

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I was a really anxious and socially inept in high-school. Me being shy and scared of girls were the only two things that could be said about me. There was this cute girl in my class, my first (and last one so far) crush. I never had a conversation with her.

I never knew anything about her.

I shot her a message a month ago (2 years after finishing high-school), something along the lines of "yo, how is your life going" she didn't reply, I suppose I got the memo.


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Eeyore 20/08/23(Sun)09:51 No. 6503 ID: 08fa63

She was the first one I fell in love with in high-school, but never had the courage to talk to. I only stayed through the remaining 3 years, because of the hope that I'd say something. Of course, nothing changed, and today I am still a loser with low self-esteem who can't understand how to approach women. I can't forget her. I live in the past and don't want to leave it behind. There is not future, only sad, faded memories long-abandoned by those who will never relate to my suffering.


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Eeyore 20/09/12(Sat)05:28 No. 6521 ID: 32a57e

I've known her for a year and she doesn't know my name. I'll be leaving next year and most likely will never see her again. She is so perfect, beautiful and sweet. I really do wish I could just straight up tell her that to her face.


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Eeyore 20/09/12(Sat)06:40 No. 6522 ID: baa2f3
6522

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Well for starters, she seems to have lost interest in me. I mean, she just wanted weird internet clout or something? So she used me? Basically she connected me with Rolling Stone magazine, I wrote a book, we did a podcast, I made a bunch of albums, & she comes out and just disses me on tape for a decade plus. I mean, I forgave her.. I thought of her as a type of soulmate? But like, the poor girl is so darned daft that she's either an actor first and a musician by accident, or she's just like.. I have no clue. Some sort of enigma, right? Um. I still sort of love her for what she meant to me, but I couldn't get past the part that I was 'trolled' to distract me from our hiatus, even though I would have happily spoken to her, and signed in despite our hiatus, uh.. Yeah. I don't know. I've been sadly in love on and off since I was 13 and now I'm almost 32 and we've never so much as shared a room. It was just like, web shit & I felt like we were a team but she introduced me to her bastard friends and I just couldn't help but avoid Yahoo! after that. I stayed on my MSN & doxxed myself so I was easy to Google, & she just, didn't try. She decided that she was sad, and I was bad, and I developed brain damage from my severe depression (due to my parents insisting I never have online friends; thus I never told a soul about my 'soulmate') in that I was medicated until my passwords and past alias' were all forgotten. So like, right before her music went back on Spotify, I Googled her after seeing her face on a magazine, in that I never liked pop singers and didn't listen to the radio or watch television, so I was just picking up my pills & saw her face and said "I should find out who that woman is" as I was famously pretending to be in a relationship with her and Ava Taylor (aka the Ava Taylor Swift conundrum) without even so much as knowing that Taylor wasn't a brunette. I had this infatuation with her, even after I had lost the ability to remember her. But I Googled her, and her birthday triggered memories to being at the public library, writing to the girl in chatrooms, installing the messenger app every day, and yada yada I just don't think it's going to work out. She has her friends use my PC and share my music. She even had me finish the story to several of my future television shows; of which many have hit more than 1 season over the past decade. Like, I honestly don't know. I have no interest in fame, or fortune, & I have claimed time & time again that I'd rather be a recluse, or live in 1745, but it's 2020 & the only girl I've ever so much as felt a legitimate connection to decided against love, and instead works on producing secret pornography with strange men. It's fascinating, I mean.. Like I said, I had, before my memories kicked in, been interested in Rachel; Ava Taylor, so like, I'm not the type gonna be all "you whore" at her, but I legitimately don't get her any longer. We were so close. Bastille day 2002 until my birthday 2004 when I was supposed to be gone for only a month. But there was something growing in her, & now I'm just going to click around Tinder, even though I'd rather be single at the moment. I mean, I like when I get matches, but they're mostly just that. A like. Right? I've never made a real connection. I've been neglected my whole life. I wish I had a lover.


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Eeyore 20/09/14(Mon)02:41 No. 6523 ID: 57d949

>>6521

This is very sad and relatable. I hope you at least have a picture to remember her by.


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sage sage 20/09/17(Thu)12:08 No. 6530 ID: 8c2966

sage


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Eeyore 21/01/08(Fri)17:42 No. 6574 ID: fac4f3

>>4771
I no longer have crushes because porn broke my brain and its illegal for me to see anyone but family members.


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Eeyore 21/01/08(Fri)17:52 No. 6575 ID: fac4f3

>>4771
I no longer have crushes because porn broke my brain and its illegal for me to see anyone but family members.


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Eeyore 21/01/12(Tue)20:30 No. 6580 ID: 5af3be
6580

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>>4771
because age gap, havent talked to him in months, he hates me because of stupid stuff i said. he cut off contact with me in late july and then in early november we talked one ast time...told him i hated him nd i wished id never met him. its been almost 6 months since we had a real talk yet everyday i think of him and hope well meet again some day. im sure im delusional, i just want something to love so i focus all my love on someone i dont even talk to anymore, and i make him out to be perfect in my mind. i try to think about other men but cant.


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Eeyore 21/01/12(Tue)21:17 No. 6581 ID: 5af3be

>>4842
>on the right
>trans
literally no and youre a deplorable faggot for wanting a fucking tranny.


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Eeyore 21/01/17(Sun)12:47 No. 6595 ID: b8e406
6595

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I had something with a chick beforehand. I was just being me, but looking back on it, being carefree and quiet isn't always exactly admirable for a relationship. I pissed her off, and out of both anger and disappointment in me, she fucked another guy behind my back, and left me. This fucked me up for a good while, and warped my sense of self. The next girl I dated was the one. She was beautiful, quiet, thought before she spoke, was open to any kind of discussion/media. I fucked it all up because I thought she'd get taken away from me if I wasn't a man in charge with a high libido.

Turns out she was taken away, for the exact opposite reason. I've hated myself for that every day since. There's no chance in hell she'd be reading this. But I'll say it here because I'm too cowardly to ever say it to your face. Iliza, I'm sorry for being such a pathetic first. I hope you get the best in life.


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Eeyore 21/01/17(Sun)14:02 No. 6596 ID: d8eced

>>4771
Which one?


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Eeyore 21/01/17(Sun)20:42 No. 6598 ID: 88c4fe

>4771
Well I cant date my crush because society doesnt accept a 30 year old Black man date a 12 year old. We live in such a racist white supremacist society.


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Eeyore 21/01/18(Mon)02:07 No. 6600 ID: c85875

>>6598
12 is too old. If you're going to go full edgelord interracial pedophilia, at least have the balls to fuck a 9-year-old girl up the butt.


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Eeyore 21/01/18(Mon)15:50 No. 6601 ID: f0affa

>6600
You know wut im fucking a -12 year old . IS THIS PEDO ENOUGH TO YOU. Fucking Spider Experts, trying, to. Teach me how to be pedo;.


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Eeyore 21/01/20(Wed)20:31 No. 6603 ID: 835021

>>6601
>is this pedo enough for you
By definition, it is not. All 12-year-old girls have started puberty and in this day and age, often two years into it. This would make it ephebophilia or even hebephilia, not pedophilia. Get your definitions straight.


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Eeyore 21/02/02(Tue)08:34 No. 6607 ID: 73f1c0

>>4771
oh because she died


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Eeyore 21/02/21(Sun)08:21 No. 6612 ID: 2252d5

She fucked me over money whils I made tunes and rap projects got sent elsewhere to other rappers because I didn't yt it, I sent it to a records which gave me a contract for all the projects I'd make tunes and words to. Now without as many tracks as I had and no income from records since I took a big pay for all of it, the rest will be from concerts but now I get no contact with the records company all pademic. IDK


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Eeyore 21/03/02(Tue)04:17 No. 6616 ID: ab6a90

We were best friends for ten years. Eventually in a relationship for three. They stayed over at a friend's house one day. Before they left they told me they loved me and all the usual stuff. When they arrived, I didn't receive a single message that night as was usual. Next morning I didn't receive a "good morning, darling" as was usual. They were quiet, distant. A few days later they said they weren't confident in our relationship, that they still loved me, but wanted to breakup. They want to just "be best friends".

I still love them. I try to stay in contact but it's been far too painful for me to. They've already moved on, in less than a month, and is sharing their happy life with people on social media while I drink away most of my days and withdraw socially. Socializing with others feels wrong, like I've forgotten how to behave around people.

Never had a crush before them and nobody else interests me romantically. Barely anyone interests me sexually either. I'd probably take them back in a heartbeat. But because they don't and likely never really loved me, it wouldn't workout.


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Eeyore 21/03/05(Fri)02:01 No. 6617 ID: feecdf
6617

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I'm famous


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Eeyore 21/05/19(Wed)10:18 No. 6642 ID: 344204

Dreams of highschool haunt me. Long shadows in the twilight, and the wolves are out. Alone in a crowd, the architecture of my school illogical and misleading. I'm looking for her but I'm alone and time is running out. Words left unsaid dug my grave long ago..

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wcAiEzlycFk


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Jr. 21/05/24(Mon)23:45 No. 6646 ID: 70b3ef
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I don't have a crush, I have to refuse all personal entanglements or else more torment will be faced.


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Eeyore 21/06/02(Wed)06:08 No. 6655 ID: e2cec5

Because she's a narcissist that only cares about sex and money.


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Eeyore 21/07/31(Sat)00:11 No. 6673 ID: 56e402

I had true crush very long ago, but I had persuaded myself that it wasn't crush and ignored it, because I was afraid that it will affect my will in a bad way.


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Eeyore 21/10/08(Fri)08:12 No. 6683 ID: d2a5e8

I'm at that point in my life where I never really go out, so I can't really say I have a crush at the moment.

That being said, to all you shy lonely nerds, listen up: if you want to be with that someone, you actually have to make *some* sort of move. I made a move with a woman I met on this very website, asked if she would be okay if we met, and she was down. We had a fun time.

Like seriously, y'all need to stop assuming the worst-case scenario. And even if it does happen, honestly, being rejected is a nice thing, since it frees up mental energy to pursue other things and people, instead of wallowing in worry and indecision: time you can never get back.

And if you're worried about your feelings being hurt, need I remind you that your parents, friends, schoolmates, coworkers, random people online, etc already do that to you.


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Kessedi 22/02/07(Mon)12:46 No. 6743 ID: 483bcf

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Eeyore 22/03/09(Wed)00:07 No. 6752 ID: ff3844

>>6683

>Like seriously, y'all need to stop assuming the worst-case scenario.

They do so because it gives them an out, an excuse not to develop an actual personality.


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Eeyore 22/03/09(Wed)02:42 No. 6753 ID: 273d68

because she's a fictional 2d character in a visual novel that I can never really touch or speak to in a human manner and also she has no arms


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RDXred 23/05/29(Mon)09:04 No. 7097 ID: 96f5b7

Bad Luck. Bad Timing.


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Eeyore 23/06/17(Sat)06:22 No. 7126 ID: 9dc6ae

She lead me on for years and after we got drunk and she threw me a pitty fuck because her boyfriend heated on her she accused me of rape and now she probably has a kid that is mine.

Women are just inherently sociopathic.


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Eeyore 23/08/17(Thu)04:40 No. 7144 ID: 8d7af6

>>7126
>Women are just inherently sociopathic.

And people like you just never shut the fuck up about it. We get it, you have mommy issues. No one cares, goddamn.


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Eeyore 23/10/07(Sat)17:44 No. 7159 ID: 7c4468

>>7144
I actually had a really good relationship with my mom.


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Eeyore 23/10/07(Sat)19:17 No. 7160 ID: 0893ad

>>4772
It is good that she is straight. Lesbien relationships statisticically and logically never go anywhere, and the abuse rate is high.


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Eeyore 24/02/02(Fri)07:33 No. 7217 ID: 052c88

>>7159
And let me guess, she's one of the "based foids" or whatever too. Yawn. If anything, only millennial women (well, the men too, really) are fucked. Women from any other gen are pretty chill. But it seems every single millennial bitch is either a Swiftie tard or a femcel who hates troons because men would rather fuck a tranny then them.


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Eeyore 24/02/13(Tue)22:36 No. 7219 ID: aac94e

>>4771
Because she posted this thread tbh.



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