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Anonymous 26/08/27(Thu)05:34 No. 846132
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I wanna preface this by saying im NOT a troon and NEVER will be and I personally know for a fact im not gay

Im a man but I don't really understand how to be one entirely, I grew up without a father figure and I was mentally ill and deeply isolated in my tween/teen years and was suicidal. I've always been very sensitive cuz of autism and im very physically weak my whole life, I was really insecure about this in high school and I was already depressed so I found myself latching onto media that had "Soft" male characters like deltarune and sanrio stuff and a variety of cute themed furry webcomics because I associated masculine men with ugly and mean things like my dad, and I saw myself in characters like ralsei or the suicidal cat in this picture

I didn't want to fuck them I want that to be clear, the fantasy is being the character and then maybe dating one of the girl characters from the comics/games I was fantasizing about. part of my suicidal tendencies was the fantasy of escaping the real world and then going to a afterlife where I basically become one of those characters,

its so bad it warped my perception of self where my inner monologue and self perception I always imagine a squeaky voiced sort of chibi/fursona version of myself whenever I think or picture myself doing something or during my cry sessions.

Im a adult now and I know this stuff is all really fucking bad and unhealthy especially since I have seen how troons are and have shifted into a more conservative mindset but no matter what I do I can't get out of this headspace

im so jealous of normal guys who grow up and do manly stuff and have girlfriends without ever having these weird fantasies because I genuinely don't know what to do, I know I need to be normal but my brain wants me to -ACK and get away from reality, wtf do I do to undo this, I feel like I got fucked up rng and should just -ack to try again at life as a normal guy.


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Anonymous 26/09/14(Mon)02:22 No. 846451

>>846437
Im sorry what?


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Anonymous 26/09/14(Mon)11:12 No. 846457

>>846437
some one pour Steve a cup of that sweet November Juliet, been a while
you just been lurking, you old Knavie?


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Anonymous 26/09/15(Tue)04:48 No. 846479
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>>846474
You managed to out-crazy me.


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Anonymous 26/09/15(Tue)06:26 No. 846480
846480

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>>846479
Don't flatter me


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Anonymous 26/09/16(Wed)05:49 No. 846494

>>846164
Post a selfie nigger.


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Anonymous 26/09/16(Wed)08:44 No. 846495

>>846494
I'm picturing Femboy-chan as a 2000s scene kid.


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Anonymous 26/09/16(Wed)13:17 No. 846497
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>>846495
This is reminding me I need to make uo a normal name for myself because "femboy kun" doesn't really work since it doesn't note the other normal/masculine half of me that wants to change for the better


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Anonymous 26/09/16(Wed)18:10 No. 846498

Congratulations 7chan. You let the 420 niggers in now you are letting in the child raping queers

Die you cunts.


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Anonymous 26/09/17(Thu)03:15 No. 846502
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>>846498
Im actually probably the more normal guy since I just have a unhealthy attachment to how teenage me wanted to be innocent and nice, I actually really don't like when people sexualize things like Ralsei or the other characters I like.


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Anonymous 26/09/17(Thu)05:02 No. 846503
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>>846502

This post glows so brite it burnt out the pixles on my phone screen.


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Anonymous 26/09/17(Thu)16:00 No. 846506
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>>846132
It's government agents deployed to make us believe in some kind of animated shit or exchanging masculinity for whatever the fuck knows what but never thinking of it in a sexual way right, I can tell op is not serious, because he sounds like a retard and a government agent, it's all a fucking psyop to introduce us to
>new ways of thinking about things


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Anonymous 26/09/17(Thu)17:47 No. 846507
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>>846506
While theres definitely a psyop to make men feminine I can safely say im not part of it I would've been posting sexual imagery if I was since thats mainly how guys get groomed into trooning out. If you have advice on how to go in the opposite direction of this effeminate bitchboy stuff then please go on thats basically the entire purpose of this thread is figuring out what to do about this.

Also yeah ofcourse I sound retarded, I AM retarded.


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Anonymous 26/09/17(Thu)19:01 No. 846508



Men want to be reminded of home, beauty, serenity, infinite depths and oceans and the nature and organics and the natural flow of life even at the cost of loss of agency haha (I imagine your a cute innocent anime realm), this is why men treat women and children just better than what they really deserve, it's like being a guardian basically, protecting innocence and beauty I guess (I suppose ugly chicks have it pretty tough though, neither do they have a real spine nor the internal honesty or ability to self audit, nor the kindness and selfless protection and service of the males like seen in healthy sexual dynamics, nobody treats them like kids and so they have to stand up for themselves inevitably in this relatively harsh survival environment...)

women want to be reminded of passion, thrills, excitement, enjoyment/play and fucking standing for something instead of being all wishy washy.

I'm not saying you should go out there and mass murder people, but there is beauty to having a spine and being a man. Even if in this world it will most likely means you'll be asked to clash with so many different kinds of niggers, robbers, cheaters, liars and worst of all - those who think they have monopolized strategy and force, yes the future wars will be purely mental, forget your fists, forget... The autist (a baby who swam in high level of prenatal testosterone environment, shifting his brain or her brain towards systemization, logical analysis of systems rather than social organization and adaptation and survival throughsocial positioning/navigation) even if afraid of or incapable of actual combat with hands and legs and rifles.. (although a true wimp will lack the decisiveness required for effective system implementation and fast unyielding adaptation) is still the future apex predator, arguably already is due to all the jewelry over the recent decades, of course there's always time for bravery and what not, I mean what if not testosterone makes one a little less risk averse amirite... but simply just having spine can potentially force you to go to war no matter how non-warlike, like imagine you were 100 times less of a proponent of using Force than Hitler was, literally would rather exhaust a thousand different options first before choosing that. If you have a spine bro you might just realize one lifetime is not enough to convey your communication and negotiation and even if it was, some people just don't want to listen and the only thing they know is violence, game theory and fake gay shit..
but they're dumb and heavy and you're smart, light and agile it is what it is dude it will have to be assymmetric.. they control the resources as well as the mass (npc) opinion.

But every moment that is a peacetime moment - appreciate it so much. Btw war is anything that requires force and forgoes negotiation or communication, some people foster it even in their own family (a good leader will not lead his family towards that kind of dynamic or energy even if that's where the woman tries to pull it in)(some say the only place a woman can lead a romantic relationship in is - the dissolution of the said relationship), a man should never go to war against his woman, because 1. It's gay and 2. It's boring and 3. He'd crush her both physically and psychologically if he wanted to because men are just stronger both physically and mentally. Whatever endeavor you can imagine, at the far right edge of the bell curve of it, it's pretty much always going to be men, be it sports, war, any intellectual or even creative activity - we're just more extreme, less naive, more curious, more honest with ourselves. Why the fuck would you want to go to literal war with your spouse or anyone in your family? Do you not understand what war is and do you not understand how quickly it would end given the power imbalance? And if you're not ending it quickly then you're undecided whether you even want to engage in war and in that case I recommend that you don't. Of course legal systems can get involved, but if you're smart (and smart always wins, except maybe in body memory systems like jujitsu or literal close quarters combat training although even there smart offers bug advantages), you'll 1. Not put yourself in that position in the first place by thinking of her as your intellectual equal and self honesty ability equal 2. Beat her psychologally before she invokes any of the state sponsored bullshit. But again why the fuck would you want a spouse who you go to war with, be a fucking man and show her that if you wanted you could crush her in a true war, but you're simply not interacting with her for that purpose. And you're not willing to give any undue trust or commitments until she demonstrates that's she ain't with you for that either. Although you always have to take it with a grain of salt - fail a shit test and watch her actively rewrite in real time whatever history or solidity you had towards each other - you always have to treat females like kids to some extent - doesn't mean you can't love them, but doesn't mean you give them your gun collection as toys to play with. That said some females have more of a warrior spirit and adventure spirit and heart than 99.999% of anyone right. But still if it becomes romantic with her, it's best to while you respect that masculine part of her, while you don't treat her as a complete goofball kawaii innocence perfection, it's best to still maintain polarity even if that's no longer purely what the relationship is about and she indeed becomes a bit like a brother. Wisdom and discernment bro, not every female is exactly the same even if there are certainly patterns you can notice. The one with a big heart will be more like a brother, but if she's hetero, she'll still want you to treat her like a girl as far as your sexual romantic part of the relationship is relevant to y'all. You can always just engage her platonically and let her outsource the romance part if you really think she's so cool that such an arrangement would interest you. But girls tend to choose retards and faggots and they have no idea what actual masculinity is, they just like the butterflies they get from a guy with psychopathic tendencies and if she's looking up to him, it can be weird treating her as your equal while she's looking up to someone obviously below you in any real metric of realness and masculinity. Guys don't have this issue, so better just look for platonic friends in guys. Well on the other hand you're a bit of a faggot yourself I guess since you're not really looking for *seriousness* in friendship or bigness in adventure, right, you just want innocent and cute shit, no? Nothing wrong with that. Just vibing, enjoying life, community, somewhat of a meaningful friendships, innocence, youth, not examining things too much or too deeply, going with the flow. Honestly it sounds great especially if you have people or systems that would take care of your physical needs, if you take care of yourself, especially with no support like in wilderness - you'll need some spine bro. That's why all those bitches are masculine now in this economy, unless they had a good father who took care and guided them or brothers or good 1st 2nd boyfriend maybe and they're still relatively young - then they can still be innocent and feminine and beautiful. Otherwise they're hardened and not by the most beautiful energies out there.. imagine loosing your innocence yet still being fundamentally nerfed relative to the male population in your ability to be masculine and accept life challenges stoicly and gracefully. Such are most women now. Trying to compete with men on/in it while barely having a clue what it's actually about. Threw away a treasure and a beauty for what? For being second rate at something that is not usually their natural identity in the first place. Although women too can have a beautiful warrior spirit, adventure spirit, and indeed a lot of solidness, integrity, DEFINITION, internal consistency... But as a mostly *feminine* being. Yes that can be immensely attractive and beautiful.

And you could even live the rest of your life like that - in peacetime - just by mostly not even looking at the world and hoping they don't come coming for you, you know like one of those American guys in his imaginary castle, "as long as it don't touch me, my friends or my community or whatever, I'm okay with it - just leave me be and enjoy my life/friends"... I mean honestly, if you have your head in the sand, even having a strong spine you wouldn't necessarily have to go to war with anyone or anything especially if you live somewhere a little bit more remote and a little bit calmer maybe like Scandinavia.. although now it's kind of infected, the baltics maybe or Vietnam or rural Japan, small mountain towns in peru chile argentina, whatever.. stay under the radar, live life on the lower key and either build a family or serve and engage in a relatively small community, preferably local. Simple life right... Fuck alladat battles of future buddhas bullshit, right?

I'm not even against faggots btw nor being an innocent little boy as a man, honestly, I get where ur coming from. But the order in my opinion is such that the masculine is designed such that it's supposed to grow up, the feminine (and we have both parts) stays innocent and cute and kind and pure. Not saying that as you choose to grow up and be that support structure for the people around you and or for humanity you cannot maintain a purity, but inherently you'll have to be willing to be more of an adult, so radical levels of self accountability, blaming EVERYTHING that happens to you as YOUR OWN shortcoming etc. still you can come out of it not completely hardened. But no, it's not really your role to be taken care of and coddled and live in an illusion, not quite. Even as we are all both polarities. There are men more manly than you and they could in theory take care of your innocent little world. I appreciate cute boys for example (no homo, just my own fantasy of having that youth and innocence that I happen to have basically never had) and with the AI stuff that's coming, EVERYONE might just start living in the frame provided by the big daddy skynet or you know the more utopian versions like idk startrek or R2D2 type, damn not many examples of that in media huh lol


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Anonymous 26/09/17(Thu)19:33 No. 846509

>>846506
The feds want you thinking exactly how you're thinking right now dipshit, you haven't outsmarted anyone.


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Anonymous 26/09/18(Fri)14:21 No. 846521

>>846509
>>846508
People here literally share and masturbate to child porn and the management shares links on telegram for years. Also, Holy shit shut the fuck up you child rapists.

(WE HAVE A TELEGRAM??? WTF)


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Anonymous 26/09/18(Fri)18:58 No. 846524

>>846521
The only reason I'm still on this site is because I like cute girls


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Anonymous 26/09/19(Sat)06:10 No. 846532
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>>846508
See I understand all of that but... I guess its just harder with my specific case of autism since I just so deeply always wanted these things I always was so drawn to escapism and fantasy but I need to accept how "ugly" reality is.

I think I definitely made things worse by making all of these things I like into forbidden fruits in my mind because I tried so hard to be rid of them anytime I gave in to them I would fall hard into obsession again.


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Anonymous 26/09/19(Sat)06:11 No. 846533
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>>846521
Honestly I mainly here to sort out my issue


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Anonymous 26/09/19(Sat)14:10 No. 846540

>>846532
I told you already there is no "getting rid of". It's just not how reality works.

Imagine all of the things in life, all ideas, modes, energies, realms, just anything and everything is like springs on walls all around you. You can pull on them or you can push on them, but all that does is give energy to the spring and that energy will discharge sooner or later. You give it energy whether you pull on it or you push on it, whether you love it or hate it. I hope that makes sense - any charged engagement that's not just absolutely calm neutral observation and or examination is charging it. You have to integrate that shit (instead of labeling it as bad or something to get rid of or undesirable, ESPECIALLY if it's something that's a big part of you, so much so that I would recommend even not labeling other people as bad or undesirable if they happen to have played a big role in your life, because they are part of your identity now to be honest, by rejecting them you reject a part of yourself), it's part of you, it's part of life, you just have to figure out a more positive and constructive relationship to it. I mean to some extent ignoring it can work, but only if done truly neutrally rather than as some kind of coping or shunning away type of mechanism.

I wouldn't necessarily dwell too much on it, but yeah, allow yourself to find a more positive relationship to it, it's obviously something that's important to you, the whole fantasy worlds and escapism. Bro, fantasy is what makes this journey worth it in the first place. And not all of it has to stay there, some of it you can bring down here and sometimes that's really cool. You may not necessarily be able to become a straight up cartoon character, but you can imagine the worlds and you can transmute some of that energy into something that makes sense and an impact here. There's a reason why you were tapping into it. And it may not be just for yourself. All of this shit is integrated bro up and down and through all dimensions. Nothing is an accident, trust the flow, trust how life unfolds etc etc

I for one think that fantasy serves many great functions. But maybe that's just my style, I label everything in the most positive way I can or I just don't give a fuck about it in the first place. I do give a fuck about fantasy. A huge massive fuck.


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Anonymous 26/09/19(Sat)14:20 No. 846541

>>846540
I mean I already hate myself and dont wanna be me so kinda too late for that.


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Anonymous 26/09/19(Sat)17:10 No. 846543

>>846541
Is that because you regret something you did, yet cannot define yourself in any other terms except for your history? Is that the reason that you hate yourself? Or is it because you choose to be something you don't like right now? If so, why not choose to be something awesome instead?


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Anonymous 26/09/20(Sun)00:47 No. 846545

>>846543
I basically have a split personality and 6 million other weird quirks I can't get rid of, alot of the time I feel like im not even a person but basically a sickly barely functioning vessel for a bunch of other minds to fight over who gets to be in the drivers seat Im very scrambled in the head to where my thoughts often devolve into abstract nonsense Im unhappy with who and what I am I don't like being autistic or all my other things that make me "special" I just want to be normal but fate just wouldn't have it I can do xyz self improvement thing but Im just so fundamentally broken I feel like I need to basically undo my entire self and start over.


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Anonymous 26/09/20(Sun)04:35 No. 846548
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>>846545
Without grace you're not going to get out of this clusterfuck in my humble opinion. And rejecting the hand you have been dealt is not graceful. This is in response to just wanting to be normal. It's just not your hand as far as I can tell. Also lowkey I want to kill normies, so what I do is try to not look at the world for the most part, because it makes me feel very militant and warlike which is not what I want to become, so I for one thank you for not being a normie even though I know your ego would betray me on that given a chance - not choose that and so doesn't deserve the thanks, but thanks to your higher dimensional personality layers (you do realize that it's not just the ego that creating this reality for you?) for making that creative choice anyway.

As for self improvement, I don't think you necessarily have to do that much of it, but yeah, it sounds like you definitely need to look at some of the fundamentals.

I'd start with stuff like... Why could you at least possibly, potentially have a genuine desire/motivation to live? (Never mind what you or others think of you or whatever)

What do you think about enjoyment? Does the symbol resonate with you? Do you think you could receive that from life? Like genuinely enjoying stuff? Is there stuff that you could enjoy? Could you perhaps even start enjoying Little things, like having a sky (I really love the sky if you can't tell) above your head when you go out of the houses and buildings etc? If you really get it, you will realize, that's not even a small thing, but a huge fucking thing, few appreciate it. But I digress. You know a lot of the time learning to enjoy the little things is not hard at all, it's just a attitude shift. Now it might be hard to locate where the change needs to happen, and in that sense it is hard, but fundamentally it's extremely easy to start enjoying the little things. Like in that Pink Floyd movie The Wall, where the guy smashes up his apartment and then starts assembling it all back and it's just enjoying the process, play, suddenly he's calm, suddenly he's having a good time, just by playing with the smashed pieces of his apartment. But it doesn't necessarily have to be just the little things, it's just that that perhaps might help you in the bigger picture of enjoying things at all... Gratitude. Appreciation. Remember these words, remember these symbols. What is your relationship with the idea of appreciation? And especially gratitude. I remember I hated that word. Do you?

And it's not just about enjoyment in my opinion although that can be pretty fundamental. What about adventure? What about passion/excitement? What about curiosity? What are your relationships with these symbols?

Sometimes, if you tune into the idea, the reality that life is fundamentally all about opportunity (which means you never really have anything other than an opportunity right now for xyz, never ANY grasping, because you can't even own anything in the first place, is like sand through your fingers, you can just behold it for a brief moment), the idea of enjoyment can actually take quite a back seat in all this. It's actually good that you're close to death and think about it, this actually helps. Both in terms of making you calm and in terms of allowing you valuable perspectives, it's like certain doors are open for you mentally that are closed for most people.

And one more thing. What is your health and what is your physical pain status? Is your body completely broken and dysfunctional to the point where you cannot do what other people with bodies can do? How about pain, how often and how intense is it if you feel it at all in your life? I know a thing or two about healing the body, stuff your doctor won't tell you.


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Anonymous 26/09/20(Sun)04:49 No. 846549
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>>846548
I refuse to accept the hand so really no amount of bit about appreciating life is going to work on me. Trust me I literally for years have had people tell me that sort of thing and its never worked. And to answer your question at the end, basically im damaged enough to where I don't really have any prospects for the future or chance at a normal life but not wheelchair levels of problems so its a weird position to be in.

I really just want normalcy above all things despite everyone always telling me I shouldn't


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Anonymous 26/09/20(Sun)05:28 No. 846550


>>846548
when I say I try to not look at the world I mean the human, the large scale social (small scale social can still be awesome actually) and all the patterns around that. I also try to not look at how much respect I receive from humanity generally (if you think about it, you are receiving extremely low respect fundamentally - threat of violence and daylight robberies are the norm), well, but this is not about my problems... Just wanted to clarify that, I'm not not looking at the world, I think the world is wonderful and especially this planet is unbelievable, not to mention the unbelievable physical world and the fact of existence and all the magic miracles and mystery surrounding that, but I try not to look too deeply into humanity and people's relationships outside of just some few people that I actually appreciate, have relatively effortless relationships with and have some faith in... I also appreciate anonymous communication even though I know you're not really anonymous here if we wanted to find out each other's identities... but if I try to analyze more deeply and more fundamentally, I find that humanity as a whole can be a little bit... Like something you want to squash and or teach a lesson, hopefully on a massive scale and I don't mean just something dumb like shooting a bunch of randos, but something more insidious and jew-like. But life's too short to get mixed up in that bullshit tbh. Some people enjoy war. I don't think I would enjoy that. For me it's always a lose lose proposition. I'd have to let go of any of the innocent qualities still left in me and in that way I guess I would kill myself before the actual death. I wouldn't find joy in it even though I would be good at it. I would basically become a computer. Which my mind is actually naturally adapted to.

I know some people actually do enjoy war. I know it's possible. But I think it takes a little bit of a more egoic and more sadistic nature that one has to possess. I never liked violence... Although to be honest, I think most of them just enjoy combat, not the actual idea of war. They enjoy the idea of combat, which is fair, it's one of the most adrenaline filled environments that can truly make you alive, I get that. I don't care about combat, I only care about war, I'd never risk going to war and accruing all the psychological and soul implications of going to war for some rush of adrenaline or whatever. War is hell, to think otherwise is to be ignorant in my opinion, there's nothing you can win there and there's nothing you can really enjoy there at the end of the day. And to function comfortably and at a high level in a war, you must become the devil. The reason being is probably game theory, but I fucking hate game theory. It misses 99% of everything and thinks that it's summing up life. Fuck game theory.
There's something called friendship and it is pure magic.
At the same time I realize that all negotiations at least in this realm fundamentally hinge on the threat of violence.. it's what provides the framework for all the rest to work..
Well, be it as it may.. looking at the wider social environment makes the idea of war extremely attractive to me, but I have to curb my enthusiasm for war, because I know for a fact nothing good would come out of it. Even though I would likely be great at "winning" it due to my IQ. There's no winning in war...

There are no elite operators (special forces guys) above like 130iq, isn't that curious... I'm pulling this out of my ass by the way. But I'm pretty sure it's true. You have to either truly like violence or be a dumbass to believe in the whole nationalism or protecting the nation thing especially in the 21st century when you have internet at your fingertips. Not to mention travel and economics getting much more intertwined and integrated and the fact that it's obviously one nation. One team. Doesn't mean I would suddenly abolish borders, that would serve just to destroy what little civilization we have left and make the whole world into india/africa, but we're obviously not on opposing teams or somehow disconnected from each other, especially not nowadays. There's no separation. It's a global community. The infighting is cancer. Sometimes I feel like becoming an immune cell (especially if I start looking around, that should just activates in me without me even asking), but then I start doubting if I love humanity enough to sacrifice myself like that, to sacrifice this magical opportunity for beauty and adventure and more... At this moment, I don't. Life's too short, I love art and creativity too much and the mysteries of just wandering around on this beautiful planet and of wandering around in your own mind and imagination and the fact you can manifest things from there - into this world.... Even if I think I would be good at it, I don't think it's the hand that God dealt me - to do that. Go with the flow I tell myself, listen to your intuition...


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Anonymous 26/09/20(Sun)05:54 No. 846551
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>>846549
>I refuse to accept the hand
Unwise imo. You cannot go against the grain of existence. Your higher self and the higher layers of your core of your definition and personality set up a tunnel for you, not because of a lack of information on their part. But because you're a brave motherfucker who likes to put himself through some shit... But hey, what do I know about your life...

Like what does you refusing to accept it even mean? Like killing yourself right? Well, I'm not going to judge that, I actually respect that. It even takes a little bit of balls and bravery is fundamentally a beautiful thing. But yeah, having no humility at all whatsoever even where it is appropriate... Look, all I'm saying is that you have to trust how life unfolds, because life is a self-fulfilling prophecy, if you don't trust it, that's the evidence that you're going to get - that it's not worth trusting. But then what's the point of living? If you fundamentally distrust existence? Distrust the universe. How can you find anything relatable here then? How can you find the desire to engage anything here? Or is the world evil but the people in it not? I tend to think the opposite. And not even that the people are evil, but that they're NPCs for the most part. And I'm not a big fan of that. I mean there's nothing wrong with it it's fundamentally, what's wrong with that is that these people end up in positions of power and then treat others with extreme disrespect. That part I'm not a fan of. I actually don't care if others choose to be npcs, I even recognize elements in my own self that want to be that. There's nothing fundamentally wrong with that.

Also, dude, I'm not you, I don't know you. You might actually have normalcy in your hand. Maybe you are refusing to accept something that is actually not true about you, WHICH WOULD BE A GOOD THING, fuck what others are trying to tell you or the rogue elements in your mind are trying to convince you of that's not true. More power to you. All you need is self honesty to analyze these things and to know the truth about them. The answers are usually there if you are just willing to genuinely ask the question and to listen for the answer. You might have misunderstood what I meant by "the hand".. that you've been dealt. If you actually do understand what I meant, then distrusting it is basically distrusting higher layers if you will of your own self and that indeed I think is unwise. You are not this well-defined ego thing. There are elements of you working simultaneously right now with the ego and they're not enemies. They're on the same team, because it's literally you. It's just that ego sometimes is too locked into its narrow perspective, to notice certain things happening or certain feelings inside you. You're literally being beamed energy right now, beamed information. It's how you filter that information that's making it uncomfortable for the most part. What about it you are allowing... Although physical disability can make it more of a high inertia thing and sometimes that's just the hand you've been dealt. Ultimately it's all just grains in the sand, because we're in this forever. Even a lifetime of a broken body is actually nothing for a bit of adventure, for a bit of learning, what have you. We all have our own reasons for being here and our own reasons for being here in the way that we are. I am convinced that when you die you see all this very clearly and realize that you did not make a mistake by coming here in the way that you did, you actually came here for exactly what you were experiencing. And it can be a challenge, but I suppose as infinite and eternal beings we do not always shy away from a challenge even if in the midst of it, we might start thinking that it's more than we can handle. You know, some people like to throw themselves into the water to learn swimming. As many as there are beings, so many there are styles of being. Just by the virtue of you being here on Earth with me means our styles somewhat overlap and so I guess there's a camaraderie in that. It is a fucked up place, but not only that. The physical reality of your body though, few will understand it, if you chose something challenging in terms of that. Even while we live on the same planet and interact in many ways within the same social environment, people have no idea how different our lives are or can be. The only reason I have some glimpse of this is because I live many lives and I have found them to be extremely contrasting, and that's just within one guy... This plane accommodates many kinds of adventures and experiences. Heaven and hell. Sometimes within the same lifetime. For the first 20 plus years of my life I actually didn't think I was even capable of happiness lol. I was wrong. I'm full of ecstasy and it springs like a fucking fountain from me. I had no idea about this for over two decades. In fact I thought only the opposite is true - that I am fundamentally a gloomy dark person. Well, but ur issues are a bit different probably. Still, I think I can relate a little bit to the struggle. And also to the arrogance of thinking you know better.


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Anonymous 26/09/20(Sun)06:04 No. 846552

>know better what this is supposed to be...


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Anonymous 26/09/20(Sun)06:28 No. 846553

>>846551
Personally couldn't care less for the "you must be like this for a purpose" thinking, honestly I could be told by a higher being the hand I have is good and I'd still reject it. Basically nothing can convince me that being autistic or being a weird sort of barely functioning vessel for 2 people to fight over the driver seat is good.

I just want to be the person I always wanted to be which is me without the defects or weird interests I don't really care what will get me that I just know what I want.

I do sometimes feel as though the suicidal furry version of me that wants to go run off to wonderland might be right but if somehow I did get that insane fantasy to come true I know I would probably go insane eventually after enough time in it by way of constantly thinking of how I should've just worked towards becoming normal but now can't go back to the real world,

and also if I was sent to fantasyland I'd probably also go insane from still being autistic when I don't want to be or having my autism not be there and then not having the main thing that made the fantasy appealing and I feel some pretty reasonable fear at the prospect of spending trillions of years in wonderland as some fursona thing I thought I wanted to be but thinking the whole time about how much you'd like to go back to being a flesh and blood guy.

so I believe the personality type that wants me to be normal is the one thats most "true" one as I feel the most comforted at the prospect of one day just being a normal healthy guy


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Anonymous 26/09/20(Sun)09:19 No. 846555



>>846553
>Personally couldn't care less for the "you must be like this for a purpose" thinking
Haha. Well then you won't be able to use the situation you are in, now will you? You rejecting it can be like rejecting the road you're on. Since no alternative situation is available to act from and this one you are invalidating and not trusting to lead anywhere good... Basically there's nowhere for you to go then.

Interesting how somebody can be so opposed to reality. Killing yourself sounds like the only viable option. Or maybe I misunderstood what you meant. Maybe you're not throwing away the entire reality. But it's literally a condition that is given to you, not something you can choose and yet you reject it which means you by default reject the reality that contains that condition, because it's just a collection of settings, collection of conditions, a set of things that define the parameters of the experience or the game that you're in.

Do you know anything about Marcus Aurelius meditations? Doesn't any of it resonate? A lot of the basic shit he was talking about was about how to live life not worrying about shit you cannot control and yet being very deliberate and engaged with the shit you can control. Enjoying life, dreaming, "running with The Stars", following the natural ways of life. I think he was super Wise.


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Anonymous 26/09/20(Sun)14:11 No. 846557
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>>846550
I respect this anon, but, I have come to the conclusion that you must accept; Life is war. Everything in life is out to kill you. The universe is, dare I say, actively hostile to your existence. The very nature of the universe is entropic decay and to be a biological organism is to actively exist in spite of this universal law. The reality is that life is pain and death and destruction. Yes, capsules of beauty exist, but, to fight is to live. It's better to live in the uncomfortable truth than dwell in an comfortable lie.


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Anonymous 26/09/20(Sun)14:12 No. 846558
846558

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>>846549
>I'm damage.

Why do you tell yourself this?


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Anonymous 26/09/20(Sun)14:17 No. 846559
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>>846553
>Run off to wonder land.

If you want this go start shooting up and jumping trains.
Everyday is an adventure. You gotta take risks, though.
You come off as a person who wants things that require high risk, but, taking none of it. No offense. I just wanna tap your boy pussy.


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Anonymous 26/09/20(Sun)17:13 No. 846565

>>846559
*child bussy


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Anonymous 26/09/20(Sun)21:26 No. 846568

OP is a 18 y/o senior


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Anonymous 26/09/20(Sun)21:34 No. 846569



>>846568
All these persons are 18 or lower


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Anonymous 26/09/20(Sun)23:01 No. 846570
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>>846565
If she's old enough to scream she's old enough for me.


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Anonymous 26/09/21(Mon)11:34 No. 846579

>>846570
That is fucking stupid. A person is considered years old from the time they're born.


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Anonymous 26/09/21(Mon)14:55 No. 846580

>>846559
You genuinely are worse than me somehow.


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Anonymous 26/09/21(Mon)14:57 No. 846581

>>846558
I mean in a physical sense its kind of complicated but my body is really fucked up internally


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Anonymous 26/09/21(Mon)15:06 No. 846582

>>846581
Tell it, stop this ambiguity


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Anonymous 26/09/21(Mon)15:49 No. 846585

I suddenly have this urge to make OP my stupid puppy boy and to be happy together


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Anonymous 26/09/21(Mon)16:16 No. 846589


Mouse women kind of have a romantic quality to them because humans poison and torture them so switching things up and being lovey dovey to a nice mouse girl scratchs a certain itch, you can dote on her and protect her from all the mouse traps and pest control people


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Anonymous 26/09/21(Mon)17:36 No. 846590

>>846581
OH, so you mean physically damaged?
I see, I see. Yeah nothing you can do for that. Try getting some one to tie strings to your legs and arms and they can walk you like a puppet.
I mean, truthfully, there's nothing wrong with being crippled. I don't think anyone cares. Shit, I'd fucking a crippled girl/boy in a heart beat as long as they weren't morbidly obese.


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Anonymous 26/09/21(Mon)18:02 No. 846592
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>>846589
>protect her
Haha, keep simping bro. Girls wanna be pumped and dumped, none of that happily ever after shit or "caring" about her. Caring is for the weak. They want a stronk man, only a stronk man can "protect" her.

Okok, they don't want to be pumped and dumped, but they definitely don't want to be treated as equals. Treat her like a child is the only way bro trusst, care about her like you care about your bro and watch her run away in real time. Protect her like you would protect a child, not out of a sense of loyalty or camaraderie or some higher more refined forms of love. It's not personal like with ur home boy. She just happens to be under your wing.

Better yet just make sure she's an actual child and still capable that young "luv" - a little thank you gift for allowing her to live in a fantasy world... To hell with hags, they posses neither the young "luv" (the gift of innocence), nor the ability to live in a fantasy. It's like painting for the blind or creating music for the deaf... like, bitch, if you're gonna be a man, at least be a real man and treat me like a brother, through fire and through hell, but they're not capable of that either.. so what's the fucking point of loving a hag, seriously? They no fucking mouse girls no mo, that's for damn sure.. it's like they can't decide which role they want to play, so they just play whichever one is convenient in the moment... It's all fake and gay.


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Anonymous 26/09/21(Mon)18:27 No. 846593
846593

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>>846592
I understand you brother


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Anonymous 26/09/21(Mon)18:29 No. 846594
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>>846592
I mean we're talking about a made up fantasy scenario of humanoid mice so idk


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Anonymous 26/09/21(Mon)19:31 No. 846597

What the fuck even is ACK? Sounds nasty. Is that like away ?from? keyboard


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Anonymous 26/09/21(Mon)22:29 No. 846600
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>>846592
I fucking,kek.


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Anonymous 26/09/22(Tue)03:34 No. 846605

>>846599
Whats that?


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Anonymous 26/09/22(Tue)18:58 No. 846608
846608

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>>846600



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