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Eeyore 16/02/23(Tue)17:34 No. 4771 ID: 31485d
4771

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Talk about your crush and why you won't be together.


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Xiaobi 16/02/23(Tue)23:41 No. 4772 ID: c4a7d8

>>4771
'Cos she is straight.


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Eeyore 16/02/28(Sun)09:03 No. 4779 ID: 759123
4779

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I hate being cheesy, but this is really the only place I can put my feelings out there for others to see.

I have a very hard time connecting to people. I like to think I'm not awkward, the opposite I think. I'm extremely confident of myself and assertive, but I just can't allow myself to break the wall when it comes to making friends...If you know what I mean.

Same goes for relationships. I'll meet someone who I think I can really connect with; They'll like the things I like, have the same humor and personality, yet I can't bring myself to know them better. I've been on plenty of dates, but I always chicken out when it comes to intimacy. They give me a couple more chances, but realize that I won't let them in, and give up on me.

/autistic blog post.


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Eeyore 16/02/28(Sun)21:31 No. 4784 ID: ed9518

>>4771
Because I'm a shit and she knows.


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Eeyore 16/03/01(Tue)00:18 No. 4791 ID: 98b286

>being close enough to someone to develop feelings for them


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Eeyore 16/03/01(Tue)23:46 No. 4793 ID: 7141eb

she isn't my crush but I wouldn't mind seeing her again, but i don't know her name and she doesn't know mine


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Eeyore 16/03/05(Sat)08:32 No. 4796 ID: 8f867a

We will.


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Eeyore 16/03/09(Wed)21:06 No. 4798 ID: 3762e8

>>4796
Either by will or force.


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Eeyore 16/04/07(Thu)05:52 No. 4840 ID: 218dda

I'm dating my crush!


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Eeyore 16/04/10(Sun)02:31 No. 4842 ID: 8fd27f

>>4771
She's a nice person. Moderately talkative, rational, clever, interested in culture and literature, rather right-leaning as far as I know, wants to become a furniture restorer/designer. Her smile is something I want to protect. She looks like she's shining when she smiles and laughs.

She's also, well, a boy. A trans-boy. I can't build a family with him, so a long-time relationship can't happen. He's also dating the girl I introduced to him last Summer.

It can't be helped. I'll still try my best to make her happy from the sidelines.


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Eeyore 16/04/10(Sun)02:43 No. 4843 ID: 47cd20

>>4771
I tried getting closer, starting conversation, but she didn't show much interest and i'm an colder guy, i wont play any games or keep on insisting.
Beside that, our common "friend" said she start seeing someone else. She's my teacher, i'm 28 and she's 26, we'll be seeing each other for 3 years...idk how i'll handle that...


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Eeyore 16/04/10(Sun)06:33 No. 4844 ID: 98407e

The only time I ever had a crush, I think I idealized her as someone who could be what I needed in a girl, someone dominant and maybe a little sadistic, sexually. Really, she was just a girl with her head on just a bit more securely than me, who was looking for the same thing in a guy. And since even back then my identity was completely fucked and I wound up being a chick, I just failed on all fronts with her.


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Eeyore 16/04/14(Thu)06:11 No. 4860 ID: 1e02df

This belongs on rage and bawww.


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Eeyore 16/04/15(Fri)18:15 No. 4863 ID: 547d57

>>4860
Unless they murdered their crush in a heart-crushing accident or fit of madness, otherwise agreed.


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Eeyore 16/06/01(Wed)07:22 No. 4926 ID: 8f867a

She used to love me..thought I was the greatest. now she thinks i'm crazy and doesnt want much to do with me.

She says she 'still cares about me' but i dont think she thinks much of me.


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Eeyore 16/06/04(Sat)21:04 No. 4928 ID: 8720eb
4928

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Very recently I have realised that I have feelings toward a guy. He's slender and has feminine features but we are just good friends and colleagues. I have always been against allowing myself to accumulate such feelings and have been strongly opposed to homosexuality.
It feels so ridiculous, I'm in a constant state of turmoil. Sometimes I just stare at him for a really long time. I just feel like holding him close. I don't know what to do. It's already beginning to cloud my good judgement.

I want to fight this, but it just becomes more and more difficult as the days go by.
I've given myself the summer to extinguish this. I don't know what I would do if I fail.


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Eeyore 16/06/04(Sat)21:38 No. 4929 ID: 8720eb

>>4779

Relationships aren't for everyone. Stay safe, prepare yourself for all eventualities.


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Eeyore 16/06/07(Tue)09:00 No. 4930 ID: 0d5218

>>4928
For all the bullshit SJWs peddle, they are right that sexuality is a spectrum. Your friend is feminine and you are a little appreciative of men. Big whup, you don't have to be gay if you don't want to, you don't have to bury your meat in his ass to still be friends. Consider if some of your feelings are motivated by thirst and transference, does he help you with your problems? Don't throw away having a genetic heir because your friend looks like a girl (which is heterosexual) and you're feeling like you'll never get laid. Consider also if you would have even thought about your friend this way if we lived in a society where homosexuality was unknown. You could also be craving male affection if you had a distant father, but a hug is not a cock remember. Also, your angsting about this could just be an anxiety disorder and not a suppressed urge.


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Eeyore 16/06/07(Tue)15:41 No. 4931 ID: a4d471

>>4930
I just don't understand this, I haven't felt this way before. Not toward guys, not toward girls, it's just new to me. It's just him.
I'm not a very socially active person. In fact, I am extremely anxious and have an avoidant personality. I've never been intimate with anyone and I really do not know what to do.
It's not like he makes me feel incredibly special or he's very attractive; he isn't even extremely feminine in the way he looks or anything, just a bit of an oddball.
Even though he's slightly younger than me, he's my boss, and I feel kind of protective of him. I sort of feel like his right hand man on this great project he's working on.
Maybe he has instilled something of a purpose in me.
I just don't know.


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Eeyore 16/06/11(Sat)09:05 No. 4935 ID: 93a320

>>4931
This definitely doesn't sound like homo to me, but I've ran out of anything remotely insightful to say.

If it's a feeling of fuck yeah when you're around him, I've had shit like that, it's the feeling of doing something meaningful with a friend. Or at least the illusion of it, because kek, last time I had it was in college.


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Ariel 16/06/11(Sat)11:48 No. 4936 ID: 3e778b

>>4931
You're just good friends.
I think it makes you feel good to be around him and pass time with him.
Your sexual excitement also comes from your will to repress it.
You know what? Fuck everything and just live your feelings. You have only one life.
And if you feel you can trust this person just say to him what you feel when you're sure enough of your feelings.


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Eeyore 16/10/29(Sat)16:37 No. 5131 ID: ee1e58

because shes with someone and hes a much better option


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Eeyore 16/10/31(Mon)10:07 No. 5141 ID: 700de0

Because im too much of a pussy to even ask her out.


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Eeyore 16/11/01(Tue)00:30 No. 5142 ID: c8555b

because she doesn't love me back

why the fuck am i still alive


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Eeyore 16/11/02(Wed)12:14 No. 5144 ID: 1f2240

My crush has DID. He loves me, but one of his alternate personalities does not like me. I'm pretty sure he hates me, in fact. The alter likes another girl. My crush believes that this alter can make better decisions for him, so he'll probably go for that other fucking bitch.

I'd like to eliminate the competition.
I won't lose him.


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Eeyore 17/01/29(Sun)20:59 No. 5291 ID: ac3026
5291

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Because I'm an idiot, I had her for one year at my feet, eating from my fucking hand, and I've treated her wrong from the very beginning. Not smart enough to enter at the university in the city she's in for studying now, applied to another one in another city. Now I'm sitting here, drowning in pussy and alcohol but I can't forget her, it's already been 5 months and I haven't had 3 consecutive days without dreaming about her. When I'm at school, I imagine going home to her and telling her what I've learned for the day. I love you, duckling, I always will.


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Eeyore 17/02/02(Thu)05:31 No. 5295 ID: f5149d
5295

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I fucked up. I know exactly what to do to redeem myself but I'm too depressed.

who the fuck in the right mind would love a miserable broken man


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Mee 17/02/04(Sat)04:46 No. 5298 ID: 2e1d8f

Because I was her first. I am old, she is young. We were together for 5 years, and engaged for 2 of them. 3 months before we were going to marry, she confessed that she was seeing someone else.

I love her, but her happiness meant more to me than life itself, so I let her go.

Tori, I confess here because I dare not say it to you now: even if I fade from your memory, I won't stop loving you. You are still the first thing I think of when I wake, and the last thought I have before falling asleep. I will live out my days in this empty house, only just a phone call away, and I promise not to hurt myself again. I was your first; you are my last.

It will be one year on the 15th of this month.


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Eeyore 17/02/08(Wed)14:35 No. 5300 ID: 9cfe1e

She lives across the atlantic. (I'm not really interested in debating whether or not you can fall for someone you've never met, but I've never felt like this with my exes, she's blown them out of the water)

And at this point she's more or less forgotten about me. We still talk a bunch but it's not like it was before. Maybe it's time constraints (read below)

The circumstances we met were pretty sad. I was hammered and I was pretty set on gassing myself that night and in some attempt (you can call it attention seeking if you like, I don't care, but people desperately want to be saved, no matter how low they get) I reached out and we met through a certain website, she talked me down, spoke to me for hours. We were both very depressed, suicidal, but mine was more imminent.

We were there for eachother for over a year. Until she got better. My life has stayed the same, but opportunities popped up for her and now she's flying. Constantly busy, doing what she loves, has always wanted to do and loving it. It doesn't feel like a job, but 'Indulging in funtime', she says. Genuinely, I am happy for her.


She'll never ever go for me. Not a chance. Even excluding the logistical issues of that, no chance. I'll just never be able to compete with the people she rolls with now.



IMPORTANT:

It's not at all lost on me that my attachment to her comes from the circumstances we met. That HAS to have warped my perception of her, and of any feelings I have toward her. Surely?

But I have no idea how to get rid of this, short of telling her, getting shot down and potentially decimating the friendship we have.

And I really, really don't want to do that.


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Eeyore 17/02/09(Thu)07:07 No. 5303 ID: ddc2e8

>>5300
>I have no idea how to get rid of this, short of telling her, getting shot down and potentially decimating the friendship we have

Tell her, but don't tell her in a way that makes her feel obligated to reciprocate. Tell her how you feel and why you think you feel that way, and that you have to let this out because it is eating at you, not that you expect anything from her. She can't shoot you down if you aren't coming on to her, and it might be good for your mental health to make your feelings known.

You might even be able to move on.


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Eeyore 17/02/10(Fri)14:07 No. 5304 ID: d6afea

>>5300
Have you tried fucking a dozen of other girls and see if she's still special?


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Eeyore 17/02/10(Fri)21:27 No. 5307 ID: f027eb

been friends for about 5 years. First 2 years we were super tight, best friends. Then we went to different schools and kept in touch via text and shit but saw each other in person just a few times a year. Used to talk literally all day, not maybe once or twice a week. Shes suoer poplar and outgoing and pretty and literally just the best person and you can probaly gather all you need to know about me based off the fact that im hanging out in /grim/. MAybe I'll at least get to be friends with her again, but all i know is tht this feeling sucks and I wish I could move on and just be done with these awful feeling I have because of out fleeting friendship.


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Eeyore 17/02/12(Sun)01:59 No. 5308 ID: c8b111

>>5303

Thanks for the response. I will do it.. one day, I just don't think I can do it right now if the worst case scenario plays out.

>>5304

It really isn't about sex.


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Eeyore 17/02/12(Sun)23:51 No. 5310 ID: 953ac3

I used her


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Eeyore 17/02/15(Wed)12:54 No. 5312 ID: 7c95ac

>>5308
Don't ignore >>5304's point lightly. You might not think it's about sex, but you'd be surprised how sex can change things for you. It doesn't have to be dozens of girls--it typically takes two: one girl to sleep with while you think about the girl you still have feelings for, and another girl after that to remember that you can move on.


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Eeyore 17/03/11(Sat)06:40 No. 5338 ID: 03bf92

>>4771
She's dead, Jim.


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Eeyore 17/08/27(Sun)05:41 No. 5538 ID: 85cdae

>>4771
She doesn't exist.

I have a very specific 'energy' I'm attracted

I am yet to find someone like that.

It is the only thing keeping me observant, and not
fucking myself to hell on heroin


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Eeyore 17/09/12(Tue)14:12 No. 5549 ID: 9c374d

dumped me (x2.5) (100% rate)
does having sex make you a normie?
I was really stressed out. I can cum like 3 times alone and keep steady bloodflow! but I lasted forever hardly felt anything and basically forced myself to cum. no rubber because nihilism
I pushed away a fellow nihilistic fuckbot-in-training b/c I wanted to talk about feelings and she used pussy as a distraction. I don't talk to anybody at all anymore. 2 years. girls suck. my boyfriend moved and we never got physical. im covered in hair and fat and regret. people like me because I remind them of their shithead knockoff older-brother counselor from summer camp they distinctly remember looking at their malnourished teen ass who if they'd just had a little longer to get to know... it'd be running behind the scenes and finding the director doing heroin with the sound editor & producer. they insist this is HOW MOVIES GET MADE KIDDO. sorry kiddo
anybody think of anything nonviolent I can do to leave a lasting impact on the world... I feel like I discredit causes by joining up with em. fundamental lack of integrity


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Eeyore 17/09/15(Fri)21:26 No. 5551 ID: e4a93b

>>4771
She's a 2D character


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Eeyore 17/09/25(Mon)08:38 No. 5553 ID: 7baec4

>>5538
I feel similarly too. I have yet to find someone I like, since all the people I know seem to have one, however, the people here are complete schlubs and the only person I would remotely consider is related to me.


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Eeyore 17/09/28(Thu)03:28 No. 5555 ID: c37fdf

She planned her life. She was smarter. She was more active. She came from a middle class family. She had connections. She did well in school. She moved on. She is successful now.

I had no clue what I wanted to do. I coasted through life. I was largely incompetent. I was mentally ill. My family couldn't live with each other. I never even knew my father. I neglected my priorities. I became broke. Almost destitute. I have to rely on the goodwill of others. I am unsuccessful.


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Eeyore 17/10/11(Wed)03:53 No. 5566 ID: ff57d8

She's moving back home.

We both started at the same company last year. First job out of college, I was 29 and she was 22. Being engineers I found a group amiable to lunch time card games (Bang!, Nuclear War, Bohnanza, etc.) and she was part of that. This Summer she asked for a ride on my Motorcycle. Seemed like a good indicator for this rather shy guy. Said and acted like she had a good time and wanted to go again, but turned down the invites I made the 2nd and 4th weeks following that.
No point being upset over it. And no point being the creepy/clingy weirdo at work so I let it be.
Today I was decided to take a quick walk around the plant and asked if she would like to join me. She said "sure!" But on the walk she confided that she had just accepted a job offer the next state over. I told her 'Congrats and good luck'. And I do hope the best for her.
It was just a little crush after all. No more, no less..



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