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So I was googling on how to forgive someone. Since that is something I've struggled with I guess, forgiving others and I saw this line.
"Amend your grievance story to remind you of the heroic choice to forgive."
I dont feel like its heroic at all. Maybe to others, but for me, I am not trying to be heroic, I am trying to move on, I am leaving the past in the past, I've decided what had happened was wrong, no matter what party, or all parties I was thinking about forgiving, I am not forgiving them to be heroic, or to "do the right thing". I am doing it for my self, because I need to let go, because I am powerless to change what happened, because there is no point for me to go forward, and I feel like accepting that I am forgiving whatever said side, weather it be my self, or someone else, its because ultimately its to better my self in the end, to give me closure. Too just try and learn what I could from the situation, and just try to keep my self sharper in the future, if I could go back, maybe I would try to handle said situation differently, but I can't. So I will try to forgive and move on, weather or not said individuals are "deserving" or asking for any forgiveness, its not about them, it's about how I am changing my perception of the event in my mind which also in turn changes me.
Then again, I am just airwolfed in the head.
That line looks like they want you to... pretend to be a martyr? That seems disingenuous and could lead to all sorts of problems. "Oh, I don't like how I used to be, and I don't like these events that happened in my life. I'm going to deliberately misinterpret and misremember them instead of actually learning a lesson and accepting reality. Then, years from now, I can be living in a loopy detached fantasy world until the moment when I can't hold it all together, and then I have to deal with an ever worse problem than I started with!"
That's some pretty terrible advice. It reeks of unwarranted self-importance and inflated ego.
"amend your grievance story"
"heroic choice to forgive"
what the heck is this?
this is just doublespeak for:
"Add in some exaggerations and lies into your story about how sad you were, and how difficult it was to give up your grief, so you can trick yourself into believing that you are morally superior"
Why the actual airwolf would anyone put this on as a self-help tip? This kind of thinking would just make you more prone to seek out situations which would make a martyr of yourself.
I got harmed by that situation -> i forgave the people who caused that -> i feel morally superior and good about the whole deal -> I am getting harmed by another situation -> I'm not going to take action against it because I get to be a airwolfing martyr again -> I got harmed -> I forgive those people -> I am morally superior
Can't forgive someone. Everytime I think about it my head just airwolfing hurts.
How mentally airwolfed am I?
So /b/ how do you rebel against the oppression of society?
When cops ask me what the drinking limit is in my country, I like to answer "I don't know officer, it changes all the time".
>how do you rebel against the oppression of society?
A lot of us are from merikaairwolfyea.
We don't have a way to do that anymore, or really even any idea of what those words mean.
Bypass US constitution altogether with TPP, TIPP, etc, elevating the 600 largest companies in the world as independent sovereign corporate nation states with their own justice system and zero oversight, and back it up with the militaries and force it to extend to every 1st world nation in the world, and fast track it through without giving congress the details, and mandate moratoriums on leaks to the public or even acknowledgement until 4 years after it's set up & operational & impossible to dismantle?
There's not one single thing any of us can do about it.
it's from niggertits
I don't have any kids.
Good morning from City and Prefectural Headquarters!
Do you ever run into shit like this over there?
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Do you need to work a lot?
How high is your income and how high is your rent?
wow. no idea what the airwolf that guy is doing
i make $20/hr. work 25-30 hrs a week. my rent is $600. i teach english conversation, no experience required.
i work some long days but mainly i go in for 4-5 hrs in the evening. that means i'm free all day most days and can also go out drinking after work since i don't have to get up early.
i eat out at least once a day. sometimes i eat out for every meal. drink a lot. go out to bars or clubs at least once a week. even found a $30 blowjob bar and some reasonable priced whores.
that guy is doing it wrong unless he's making mad cash (which i doubt)
and that says don't dump garbage there
So what type of humour do you guys have?
I've always been the type that enjoys black comedy, stand comics like Bill Hicks and George Carlin are some of my favorites in that field.
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I love over the top drag queen humour.
I know I'm not going to make any friends with this comment:
After reading and hearing tons and tons about Carlin from people, praising him as the "last greatest American comic/comedian/etc.", I watched a couple of his videos on Youtube yesterday, and I must say, I'm a bit disappointed.
I mean, yeah he has the balls to say what he pleases about the political and social climate in the US (he sounds like a socialist, which, in the US, is like blasphemy), and some of his jokes are pretty witty. But, on the whole, he seems to get the most laughs from saying things like "How about this 'course of action' (reference to some previous situation): Suck on my balls!". Which for me, diminishes the value - too much crude humour to "balance out" the witty stuff.
But on the whole, he might be one of the funniest American stand-uppers I've seen, and also pretty rare to see an outspoken socialist become this famous in the US.
I just realized that there is a fundamental flaw in my main argument for my PhD thesis. Final draft is due in a month. 3 years or work ruined by a stupid oversight. Might not even be able to stick around and finish, making this a 6 year masters degree in horse shit.
How's your day going?
Good size for oral sex though.
I pulled it together and came up with the results I needed by the deadline. Everything went better than expected. I defend in about 13 hours, so I am going to try and sleep. Pretty confident that by tomorrow I'll be all but a PhD.
Thanks for listening to me bitch. Keep being the best.
The republic is dead.
Might as well eat donuts and get fat.
The Japanimals must be up right now. What's your deal Japan. I hear Tokyo is a city that's been built a thousand years in the future.
I always envisioned electromag cars of some sort and an army of smiling fembots. How close are you guys?
What happened to your childhood /b/?
Offend? Are you paranoid as well? Try being less beta.
So, what else happened in your childhood, anon?
I put my balls inside your momma.
Was thinking about something called the PeerNet, where we torrent our web pages so we have total control. Think about it, web pages generally aren't very big & could be torrented very easily, especially if most people just leave it in their torrent client seeding. I suggest that this thread here could get it started. Post a link to an accepted 7chan filehost so people can download the torrent for your web page & we can slowly build up a PeerNet.
Designers should keep in mind that many links on said pages can be for regular urls but they could also be for downloading a torrented web page too. Try to link each other's pages as much as possible to make it easier for PeerNet users to access more pages.
At one time there was a p2p addon for firefox that did something like this (probably used a different protocol). It wasn't very popular, but that was in the early post-napster days, when p2p breifly reverted to a geek-only topic.
In terms of internet performance, p2p webpage downloading is a great theory, but security and configuration are kind of a nightmare. Also, it only works for static elements of the pages. An imageboard, for example, may change too often for p2p downloading to work.
There are security options available; I would use a secure protocol for the p2p connections (an obsfucation network like tor or i2p sounds cool, but they are tragically slow) such as https. The other reason for using https is to simplify configuration and obfuscate traffic (ISPs typically allow bot incoming and outgoing connections to the https port and do not consider these connections suspicious).
It's better to avoid esoteric ports as these may be arbitrarily blocked and users likely have no means to change their ISP policy.
The other security and configuration concerns are (de)centralization of peer referencing and client cache content.
If it were torrent, there would be trackers, dht, and pex methods available for referring peers. Websites running their own tracker would be the easiest to configure for optimum performance; global trackers could service multiple domains. The problem with all three methods is the automated sharing of identifiable information. A malicious client might abuse the system to select targets for observation, infiltration, etc.
In order to have content to share, clients will need to keep a significantly large cache for a significantly long time. Care shouldbe taken to avoid caching content from sites requiring login for security as well as unpopular or frequently updated pages' content for performance.
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There are risks, there are inconveniences, but that's the price of admission into the PeerNet. People need to know getting into this that an internet under our total control using P2P isn't gunna load new fresh pages as fast as normal. They'll have to download the torrent, half a sec. Then load it in their torrent client, half a sec. Wait for it to download, another half a sec. Then open the folder it downloaded to & click on the new page, 2 secs. That's a lot slower than the regular internet but I actually think it's faster than some Dark Net pages I've loaded.
Torrents allow it to be totally under our control, but depending on filehosts to just download the pages in a rar file is another way. Although I don't think the term PeerNet applies anymore at that point. Still, the files are on servers & can be deleted. They can be re-uploaded of course, but still, it's not fully under our control.
All it takes is people to start doing it, that's the 1st & most important hurdle. We didn't make it over that hurdle. Too bad, maybe one day people will be more Shadow Net minded when the regular internet is censored & regulated big time.
>download the torrent, half a sec. Then load it in their torrent client, half a sec. Wait for it to download, another half a sec. Then open the folder it downloaded to & click on the new page, 2 secs.
Simplify this by integrating it into a browser. PeerNet needs either a locally running proxy to intercept requests, process downloads, and return webpages to any browser or a customized browser that does it all internally.
Perhaps you could fork a torrent client and/or a web browser for the purpose, but the possibility to integrate PeerNet into existing browsers is the key to adoption in my opinion (no one wants to install anything, no one wants to configure anything; by "no one" I mean the 99.9% of people who own an Internet capable-device yet refuse to learn anything about the technology within.
>All it takes is people to start doing it, that's the 1st & most important hurdle. We didn't make it over that hurdle. Too bad, maybe one day people will be more Shadow Net minded when the regular internet is censored & regulated big time.
Don't hold your breath. As I said, this has been tried before. It's a great theory, but I doubt it will see practical use until it can be reliably and completely automated (the only way it will ever catch on is if people don't know they are participating (they won't know--even if it's in the User License Agreement--so long as it looks like what they are used to and behaves like they are used to).
The mental health office psychiatrist recommended to me giving up scribbling here, because in his opinion, "this sick gay man" ill me more and more. The psychiatrist is now following the discussions here and then discuss with him these things.
The danger is that you and I were placed in involuntary treatment Vammala. Trying to now be properly!
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his demeanor, coldness in personality and not to mention in bed, the conditions of his room, I can go on.
he was also overweight in an unattractive way (I'm usually fine with stuff like that)
There is something attractive about being cold and impartial (it gives off the impression of being intelligent and rational), but when people show impassion in the most passion-inducing aspects of life, they become awkward (and not in the nice, "quirky" way), and you think them an idiot.
The situation was not helped by his unwillingness to take action in order to better his life - which I think, is the most repulsive trait of all: Contentedness and complacency.
I know the feeling. I once dated a german girl, she was cold as airwolf. Not fat or something wrong, if it was anhedonia, well, anhedonia passes, I'd understand. She chose to act that way, which I find despicable. Needless to say, it ended fast.
I think you should stop seeing a therapist and enroll in an ESL school. It would certainly be of greater benefit to your intellect.