It's possible to give yourself over to it, which can be a interesting experience. It's a little like losing your mind, and I would not recommend taking that path for more than a year at a time.

>>45788
The best thing to do usually involves making a large change in your lifestyle, John. Quitting your current job and trying to advance in a totally different one, maybe moving if you have the money to do so, committing to learning a new skill, anything that will bring uncertainty and challenges to overcome back into your life. You've hit a sort of Groundhog's Day situation, stuck in a loop of doing the same thing every single day no real future change in sight, and if you want to break out of that you have to quit perpetuating the loop.

I started this thread. I have trouble letting things go. I wish it would never disappear. It is once again winter.

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All good things must come to an end, John.

>>45780
John,

I recall that I once had a book end. I had two of them, actually... One end looked like the front of a train and the other looked like the caboose. It did not really look like a train was driving through my books, though...

Those book ends were made of wood. I believe that my mother won them at some sort of Christmas raffle one year and thought that I would enjoy them. She gets me little things all the time that are a little off point, but they let me know that she thinks about me...

She worked at that job for a long time. I worked for them twice in different positions. In one position, I stacked phone books into pallets. In the other one, I delivered phone books to homes and businesses... I drove by a mattress shop once doing that. Actually, I may have even delivered their phone book...

They finally closed down the local branch of that company. Nobody really needs phone books anymore, John. It is a world of change that we live in...

It is nice to see that we are still the comfortable same. Thanks.

Yours Truly,
John
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John,

We are having a warm season for Colorado this year. They say that cold is coming, but you know what they say about "they" anyway, don't you, John? Anyway, my car is due for the rotors to be done. If the weather does get cold, I would like my vehicle to be safe on the ice. I got the brakes changed, but I did not have enough to do the rotors, so I have to wait until the next pay period. I want to get everything taken care of so we are safe.

I should probably get some sturdy shoes for working this winter, also.

Speaking of periods, John, the days sure are short these days. They do not seem to really get going until nine in the morning, and by then, a lot of the day is burned away. The sun sets around five, it seems like. Short days...

Yours Truly,
John

I like the cold John, but only because I can spend so much of its season inside. I like filing my newspaper clippings while the radiator fizzes and bangs to life. The pages are dry and some yellow. I am behind on my filing.

I like watching movies in the winter, and writing reviews of them on my index cards.

If I had to be outside all the time I don't think I'd enjoy it, John. I saw a bum outside of the Chinese restaurant around 10:00 PM tonight. I didn't give him any of my change.

>>45579
I did not have the happiest childhood. Sometimes I feel a deep nostalgia for a history I did not live, and the desire to create that history in my future so I may one day look back upon that time with a nostalgia false no more.

I usually wake up and sit on the toilet with the shower running while the coffee brews. I'll then fill a mug and sip my coffee while listening to music or watching something on youtube.

In time, I'll pick up whatever trash is around and maybe do a load of laundry (I might do laundry twice or thrice a week) then head for a shower if I didn't take one the night before. After some more music and another cup or two of coffee, I'm off to work.

I wake up at 5 am, take a cold shower, meditate for 10 minutes to clear my mind, drink a lot of water, and sometimes I eat and sometimes I don't, depending on the demands of the rest of the day. Then I take a dump if I couldn't do so before my shower. After that I play with my dog and feed her. At 6:30 I hit the streets and go to work. I take a lot of time on this early morning routine as you can see, but I can't start my day otherwise. I sometimes read the news on the internet, some others I do some exercise, some others I just the previously stated stuff.

>>45770
Hello John. It didn't in here.

Who are you quoting?

Howdy John, I always appreciate putting a good line under my "1" as well as the little lip that's on the top. I feel like it really distinguishes that it is a "1" rather than a lower-case "L" or the letter "I".

Sincerely, John Smith

Dear John,

How utterly ruthless of you, I really appreciate adding an extra slash of ink through my sevens as well.

Sincerely,

John

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>>45561
I don't put a line through all my zeros but when I filled out deposit slips and sales/labor tracking sheets at my old job, I would always write a zero with a line through it, as pictured, to signify "nothing" as it saved me another pen stroke despite my taking a second to admire it.

My secret John, if there's one, is a mix of absolute lack of any passion for what I do, absence of any goals other than remaining in my current way of living, and incredible talent for following the established rules and procedures.

John,

My secret is that I have no secrets. I am a book sitting on a shelf that is both easily seen and easily accessible. Being an open book just seems wasteful. We can always afford to put things back where they found them.

I also try to remember that if it was not me doing it, they could probably get someone else to do it, so I may as well do it and not bother anyone else about it unless I need to or do not feel like doing it. It is always alright to just do enough to get by.

Yours Truly,
John

John,

Every day I simply say to myself "get on with it" and that is exactly what I do. I get on with my day and the tasks associated within the 24 hour time period. That is all.

>>45753
why was this so interesting and so sad at the same time

>>45753
I like your way of thinking, John. Very novel-esque.
>>45756
We are all going to make it, John.

>>45753
Thank you for this detailed reply, John. I truly enjoyed reading it.

You're a commie.

>>45210
Today I learned...the university building supervisors name is Nick

John,

I do think that it is a bit risky to use a pseudonym.

People may get the wrong idea.

Yours Truly,
John

That's nice, John.

I wouldn't, thank you.

Sincerely,
John

My dear friend John, how unlucky for me.
I still feel that you might open up if I tell you about my recent encounter with moonlight.

As I presume, you might have heard about the so called super-moon, it was all over the written press.

While there is no doubt about me anticipating the moon I was on about my daily chores in the god forsaken heat of the November sun.
As my impatience grew stronger I knew I couldn't stay in town for the night. Like an unsatisfied child with attention deficit disorder I grabbed my car keys, left the chores half-done, muttered to my neighbors and started the engine.

While the car started, the radio turned on with a bittersweet screech of my favorite artist playing the electrically amplified guitar, as if the universe knew about my secret, as if the radio was singing to me.
"Highway to hell" blasted through the radio waves and in to my cells like a neurotransmitter.
With the sun beginning to set, I had already passed through several various towns.

As I passed through a community I was always struck by the tragedies of men and how life always seemed to be too short.
I could often see it oh so clearly and vividly , even though the moment only lasted for as long as a heartbeat, it felt like a lifetime watching those twitching tear-filled eyes become still.

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