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Eeyore 15/08/25(Tue)23:06 No. 4537 ID: a677ef [Reply]
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Who's that girl and why does she make you sad /grim/ ?

I just can't stop thinking about her. In a few weeks it'll have been a year. In another few it will be her and her boyfriends' anniversary.


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Let me tell you a story. Anon!moNoTOnous 17/03/23(Thu)05:22 No. 5357 ID: 26a2fa
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In my schooldays, there was this girl: she was petite, to not say flat, had tiny shimmering eyes and wavy black hair that started a little behind that it should have, lips maybe too thin and she might have benefited from wearing braces.

But none of that was important.

Her smile was bright as polished marble, and her laughter was a crystal bell. The way she skipped and hopped when she got excited was the most adorable thing my eyes have ever seen. She was nice, caring, attentive. She knew when to listen and she knew when to speak, and when she did her voice never faltered. She treated me like a person, unlike the rest, and I trusted her enough to tell her my deepest secrets. And, one day, recognizing my feelings for what they actually were, I decided to give her my heart.

She didn't want it. Not then.

So I resigned myself to be liked as a friend, but then something in her changed. She started hanging out more with me, she invited me to her home to meet her parents, and asked me for my opinion in mostly everything. But I, still wounded by the previous experience, insisted in denying the evident, and never took her advances as such, no matter how blatant. I even took her to the prom as a friend. Then the schoolyear was over, and I was now in another state.

I fell out of luck, grace, and everything. But I still had her in a corner of my heart, so one day, tossing caution to the wind, I hitchhiked one day to see her again. She wasn't there.

She was with her boyfriend.

So I took my leave, and left forever. Years passed, new crushes came and went, and I found a woman, which was all I deserved. Supportive, but clingy. Companion, but jealous. Strong, but violent. And I married her, formed a family and sired children.
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Eeyore 17/03/26(Sun)09:46 No. 5359 ID: b9da78

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Eeyore 17/12/25(Mon)02:34 No. 5661 ID: 080550
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It's been about 3 and a half years since she left, I am still unclear on why. I don't even want her back I just want to know why she left.

She will never read this. But sometimes I see her in traffic while I am on my motorcycle. I keep my visor closed and wear an all black racing suit. She will never know that it's me racing by her in the middle of traffic, weaving in and out of cars with no regard for safety. I'm not even sure if she knows I have a motorcycle.

Anyway, I haven't gone a single day without thinking about her since the summer of 2014. Everything in my life has changed because of her, and despite becoming financially successful, and having a career that I once only dreamed of having, nothing really makes me feel good.

I'm tired but I don't think I have the nerve to speak to her. All I can do is ride my motorcycle. Eventually I might work up the courage to write her a letter or something. Until then, I'll park at the local grocery store every Saturday at midnight and smoke a cigarette under the street lamps before continuing to ride aimlessly, and maybe by chance she will see me there.




Eeyore 17/12/14(Thu)04:09 No. 5659 ID: 0c2267 [Reply]
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is the music on /grim/ gone now or is it just in my browser? i haven't been here for a while and this time there's no music.. i really miss it. i think it really added to the atmosphere of this board and made it a lot more.. hm.. it's difficult to explain. it felt like, as an example, the areas with the merchant in RE4.


also, looking up suicide methods and doing research on effective and efficient methods of self-termination is very comforting to me. i find solace in knowing there is a way out.


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Eeyore 17/12/15(Fri)16:39 No. 5660 ID: b2d00d

>>5659
It's an embedded youtube in an iframe; check your security and adblocking settings.

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Footsteps in the Darkness Eeyore 17/11/11(Sat)09:33 No. 5623 ID: 355ab2 [Reply]
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Thud, Thud, Thud, Thud. You open your eyes from your deep and dreamless sleep. You try to look over to where the noise is coming from. Thud, Thud, Thud, Thud. But you realize you can't move. Your eyes are straining, tilting to look at the door. That sound, it must be coming from outside your room. You can make out the shadow of someone standing outside from thee crack in between the door and the cold floor. You want to move as fear fills you, you feel it in every inch of your body like a poison. You're muscles strain as you muster all your strength to move, but you can't. Maybe if you scream loud enough someone will hear you. You yell at the top of your lungs, but the only sound that escapes from you may as well have been a gasp. You're thinking to yourself somebody, anybody, GOD HELP ME!!! SAVE ME! PLEASE... Thud, Thud, Thud, its coming closer. you're losing your vision as your peripheral vision goes out of focus and darkens. Your hearing seems as though its being drowned out by the very definition of darkness itself, like waves crashing against a cliffside as you're being held underwater. You can hardly breathe anymore every breathe is feeling closer to being your last. Thud... Thud... Thud... footsteps in the darkness. Thud... Thud... Thud... The dark figure stands right next to your bed. You can feel it, you know its there, but you can't see it. SAVE ME!!! OH GOD!!! SAVE ME PLEASE!!! The words echo in your mind, this must be the end. Those footsteps in the darkness, to whom do they belong?


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Eeyore 17/12/09(Sat)11:06 No. 5656 ID: cc4c6a

my penis




Killing Games AnonymousAttano 17/12/08(Fri)06:57 No. 5655 ID: f0474b [Reply]
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Well. Today I come here looking for your honest opinions. What are the best Killing Games you can come up with? I'm looking for nitty gritty stuff that tests ones humanity. Like Battle Royale, Kings Killing Game, Truth or Die, and et cetera. . . Some friends of mine are bored and need something to entertain them.




I sometimes come back to you guys Ariel 17/11/25(Sat)00:10 No. 5641 ID: ab4eba [Reply]
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I sometimes come back here to remember the times when things weren't going so well to show you guys that things really can change.
I now found work in Milan, Italy. I don't earn that much, about €1300 a month.
I finally found a girlfriend. We met on the 1st of April of this year and we liked eachother immediately. We've been together ever since. It wasn't easy at all because we had tough moments for a lot of reasons. We are both born in 1988.
At first I thought our relationship wasn't that serious so I wasn't so much emotionally involved even though she is really beautiful but then she showed me that she did like me a lot. I started acting more serious about the relationship and we ended up passing more and more time together.
The most serious thing we had to face was a really serious health issue on her side: she was bit probably by a tick and she contracted some form of Lyme disease. I don't want to explain all the things we went through those 3 months but in summary a strange spot showed up on her left elbow. At first we didn't think much about it but after one month and a half strange symptoms started appearing. At first she had fever for one day and after that she started feeling dizzy, nausea, joint pain, very tired, confused, amnesia. She searched these symptoms online and found out about the Lyme disease. We were very lucky that she had a male nurse friend that passed her antibiotics for free and she started taking antibiotics without any diagnosis from a medic. In fact we had absolutely no help from any doctor that we visited, even expert infectivologists. After exactly 3 weeks of taking antibiotics twice a day those strange symptoms were almost all gone and slowly she recovered. We were very lucky because I've heard of a lot of people, even famous people, that fought with the Lyme disease for years just because they didn't treat it immediately.
I am so happy we got over those days because I couldn't stand to see her, the girl I love, in those conditions. Now she is better but still has problems with her parents. She still lives with her parents and brother. They stress the life out of her and it makes me mad. I've met them in one really strange situation. I work during the week. In those days when she wasn't feeling so well and her parents were on vacation in the mountains I wanted to stay with her at their place so she could feel better and not make disasters because of her Lyme disease caused amnesia. So in the evening, after a day at work, I would take the train and go to her parents' house and sleep with her in her room, without her parents suspecting anything. Then, in the morning, I would take the train and go to work. All went well the first couple of days then on the last night I would stay there her brother spied on us and told her parents about us. They arrived in the middle of the night while we were sleeping naked and huggin Message too long. Click here to view the full text.


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Ariel 17/12/02(Sat)08:37 No. 5647 ID: ab4eba
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>>5643
Love interest?
Love is actually what we are really looking for into others, even when you are psychopath. We want attention, we want to be loved, we want to be desired, we want ourselves inside the mind and body of others in some way or another. This is the main reason why we and our genes are alive today, because some time in the past one man went inside a woman and we were born.
So yeah, love is important. Not just romantic love, but love in general: the authentic encounter between two sentient beings in this vast and empty universe.

>>5645
The perversity of devils to cherry pick Bible verses for their own needs. Yes, we all know that. That's not how it works. We all know there are some really violent things written in the Old Testament but Christians are not Jews because we follow the teachings of Jesus Christ. Jesus Christ said that the old law was not to be completely abolished but what He came for was to bring the message from His father.
I'm not here to judge others, besides "let any one of you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her." We should only offer the teachings of the Bible and not oblige others onto them. The thing is different with children because they need to be taught so they can be prepared to face this world.
Only Islam obliges you to their teachings. Either you pay a fine or become muslim. If you don't do either of these things then they will kill you. And if you are a muslim and leave Islam then they will kill you. This is the so called religion of peace.

If you are agnostic or atheist then you are welcome to believe whatever you need or want to believe. But remember that when you are put face to face with your heart and soul right before your death, there will be no theory of special relativity there to save you.

Love is what makes us human after all and Jesus Christ was pure love.
"If I speak in the tongues of men or of angels, but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have a faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing.
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Eeyore 17/12/05(Tue)05:32 No. 5652 ID: 858dc6

>>5647
It's Christians who cherry pick. You just said so.

Either way, you're right. I was being a total dick to OP and it was not called for. Things are pretty cold and dark on my end, but there's always hope that they will get warmer and lighter.

A lot of the devils who seriously harmed me and those around me claimed to be Christians, and whether or not they were Christians is just up to interpretation. Who wouldn't find that disturbing and threatening?

You guys turn to God in dark times, and that is respectable.

It's just that Protestantism is a spin-off of Catholicism, and you said you believe that Catholicism is the Antichirst? Do you believe that the Catholic Church was at one point good, and then became corrupted? They edited the Bible, no? They chose which books to put in it, right?

Yes, I have seen a lot of ungodly things come from supposedly godly people.

If the Catholic Church can be the Antichrist, maybe its not a stretch to call Christianity an unhelpful schism between the relatively reasonable and the relatively unreasonable. If God told you to jump off a bridge, would you do it?

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Eeyore 17/12/05(Tue)05:36 No. 5653 ID: 858dc6

>>5647
And your Grandfather sounds like a good man.




Eeyore 17/11/15(Wed)03:10 No. 5629 ID: 50db27 [Reply]
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I wonder how high-temperature rapid incineration is as a way to go.

I know burning to death is pretty bad, like people who self-immolate or die in house fires, etc. but that's slow, and low-temp. They get cooked to death. Would it be any better if it were hot enough to turn you to ash in minutes?


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Eeyore 17/12/02(Sat)13:03 No. 5648 ID: 27723a

>>5636
I think I found the video you're talking about. The quality is very low, but it looks like he's converted to steam or smoke quite rapidly. It's not that I'm suicidal, but I am fascinated with this particular kind of death. I wonder what he felt, if he felt anything, and how long it took him to die. It's a shame he didn't have the experience scientifically observed.


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Eeyore 17/12/02(Sat)22:11 No. 5649 ID: 8bf12e

>>5648
Death might be so fast that the pain doesn't register, so to speak. On the other hand it could be agonizing and a lot longer than you'd imagine.


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Eeyore 17/12/05(Tue)04:44 No. 5651 ID: e52900

>>5650
I've thought about it before. Sometimes I wonder if the pain from a shotgun blast would hurt.

Overdosing on sedatives, especially "pleasurable" ones, is probably painless.

Incineration is an entirely different thing.

More often, people fall into molten vats by accident. Here's one example: http://www.cnn.com/2009/US/07/09/new.jersey.chocolate.death/.




Eeyore 17/11/07(Tue)23:45 No. 5617 ID: b82db7 [Reply]
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I'm so lonely, I have no friends in rl, no do i care about anyone in rl or online...I try to act funny, be nice, or even stupid...just to make others happy. I do this because I cant feel emotions because of my medications I take...I cant say what they are but the pills i take are to help me live my life everyday...happy, weird, nice...but so empty, so cold. The moment I took these pills i knew i wouldn't be the same old me. Its been 4 years since I first took them...and I'm...lost. I cant feel emotions, I laugh at people in pain, I became more hungry for emotions that People who cry turn me on. These pills keep me sane, keeps me from hurting anyone else or myself everyday. I just want friends who can understand me, who just want me to be me. Who are just there for me when I need them. Honestly, I think about killing myself everyday, I see hallucinations of my own death, hear whispers in the night telling me to kill myself and I hear them, in the night, every-night. I just. I dont want to be alone anymore...I dont want to be alone anymore...I dont want to be alone anymore...I dont want to be alone...help me.


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WMB 17/11/21(Tue)06:51 No. 5640 ID: 223ae4

>>5617
Hey, I know you might never see this, it's basically a fact. But, I have been putting off getting a diagnosis, but I have a strong feeling that I need to be medicated. I've actually been looking at my gun to answer it. I've been waking up to just freaking out of my problems and distracting myself with drugs and alcohol-

My point is, did you feel like you lost yourself in the medication? I feel so different from others but I've learned to grasped it. But this person I've chosen only wants peace.

Peace from needing to pay to live.
Peace from needing to spend my life with another.
Peace from needing to be happy.
Peace from needing to live.

I just want to rot away, still as a rock, and free as a bird.


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Eeyore 17/11/30(Thu)23:44 No. 5646 ID: 8bf12e

>>5640
death is peaceful
A bird is alive. If a bird dies, it's not free anymore, it's dead. Being dead is not like being a bird, it's like chair or a pen. It's not peace, it's inaninmence.

>is the medication good?
Who knows what medication OP is talking about. Antipsychotics can treat psychosis, but they don't always, and they often have serious side effects. If a case is hopeful, the goal is to put an end to the acute episode (it can take a few months to several years) and to ween off the medication.




Depression sucks Eeyore 17/11/16(Thu)04:10 No. 5634 ID: f83095 [Reply]
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I just started the life I've been wanting. I have my lovely boyfriend and we just had a baby together. We're about to move into a house together too. I really do love this man. He is my everything. Our baby is our everything.

But my depression has consumed me completely. I actually feel like I'm losing it all, everything that I've worked for. I keep holding myself back, all I've been giving myself is hate and shame. I feel like I've been a terrible mother. My anxiety gets the best of me. I'm so afraid of not being enough for my daughter. I feel so guilty for the pressure this puts on my boyfriend. He is always there for me, even after seeing me at my worst. But I still can't escape the fear of something interfering our relationship. I'm so afraid of disppointing him. He gets so frustrated with me when I fall into my episodes of bad depression.
This is definitely where I dissapoint him.
He sees me curled up on the ground with spit and snot all over my face, hair, and clothes. He sees me hitting myself in the face. He hears me saying that I want to hurt myself and that I think I'm not enough.
He can't handle this. I shouldn't blame him.

I just lose myself. In fact, I feel fucking crazy.
Thoughts take over and bully me. It all overlaps like a group of people standing around me talking shit while I'm on my knees crying. I cry, I scream, I hit myself, I break things and knock things over without any self control. I even hit him once. I immediately regret these things and then my head is filled with shame and even more self hate.

I get so sensitive. My heart feels like it's literally breaking when I'm criticized. Or when I've done something wrong, even on accident.

I can't get myself out of this sick cycle.

It's ruining my relationship with my boyfriend.
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Eeyore 17/11/20(Mon)01:59 No. 5637 ID: 27614a

>>5634
These things are not even abnormal. People who tend towards depression often have their depression triggered by major life changes, positive or negative. You should look up postpartum depression. That might be something productive to do.

Guilt and sensitivity to criticism is a very normal manifestations of depression. If you have ever gotten help from a counselor, you know this.

Women hit men very often, despite gender rolls suggesting otherwise. You probably hit your boyfriend to hurt him emotionally, as an uncontrolled primal reaction. You probably did not throw a punch that was strong enough injure him, and maybe you couldn't if you tried - this is why women hit their boyfriends quite often.

Feeling crazy is also a common thing in depressed people, since depression can lead to psychosis. You probably should get off the chans and go seek help from a counselor or at least a trusted friend, for your own sake at least.


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Eeyore 17/11/20(Mon)02:02 No. 5638 ID: 27614a

>>5634
Also, if you see a clinical therapist and are offered drugs, know that SSRI's and SNRI's very, very commonly cause sexual side-effects. Antipsychotics, another class of medication, are very dangerous. Antipsychotics don't kill people very often, but they cause a lot of permanent side-effects that affect quality of life.


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Eeyore 17/11/20(Mon)02:11 No. 5639 ID: 27614a

>>5634
I know this is not emotionally supportive, but you have to know that you'll be fine so long as you act intelligently and stay determined. In the spirit of /grim/, you should know that once you get better, you'll feel like this again. But then you'll pull through again, and feel better for a time. Such is life.

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Everything hurts but I still feel numb Eeyore 17/11/14(Tue)06:33 No. 5627 ID: 2b2bcd [Reply]
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I don't know where else to go. I don't trust people to help me and I'm not even sure If I want any.

Every day I continue living just hurts more than the last and I find it increasingly more difficult to push myself to keep going.

The only thing keeping alive anymore is the one person who I feel has ever cared about me and she's not going to live much longer. After she's gone I'm scared of what I'll become or what I'll do.

I don't mean to bitch and put my problems on anyone but please just give me some advise. At least an effective way to end it if nothing else. That's all I ask.


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Eeyore 17/11/14(Tue)08:07 No. 5628 ID: f1690d

Advise about what?


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Eeyore 17/11/15(Wed)22:24 No. 5632 ID: 5d5040

>>5627
You said the problem yourself.

>I don't trust people to help me, and I might want to be helped.

It will feel considerably better to believe there is help, even if that help never arrives. Faith in a positive outcome is enough to push through hardship until things get better, even if a direct form of assistance never arrives.

>I'm scared of what I'll become, or what I'll do, once this person close to me dies.
That is still up to you. Trust me. Forget all of that "there is no free will" crap. Try to be open-minded. Imagine all of the possibilities that life will bring once you push through the depression and grief. You can be a happier, healthier person again.

People who are open to help, and change, pull through states of severe depression a vast majority of the time. In the lower to moderate states of depression, it is very possible to work towards feeling better.

Your state of depression is separate from this person passing. You will have to combat this depression either way. A person in a more positive mental state can take feelings like anger or loneliness and convert them into productivity. Obviously, productivity can be put towards purposeful ends, such as finding another caring friend.

There is going to be grief in life no matter what you do. Just do the right thing and take life as it comes. We usually imagine our reactions to future events as stronger than they really are. Then, especially if we spend a lot of time pondering alone, we report feeling numb.
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Done with life Eeyore 17/10/09(Mon)05:04 No. 5560 ID: 788593 [Reply]
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So this is it for me I think. And no I won't kill myself, I will explain my situation as short as I can.

A girl I was for 4 years abandoned me in a hard moment where a couple of friends passed away and I was in a financial crisis, even about to be kicked out of the house I'm currently living in.

And I tried being nice, I really tried but life fucks us all I guess and I don't feel like being nice anymore. I helped her through several shit, even made her get rid of bulimia but at the end she was an ungrateful cunt. So I decided I may leak everything I have of her because fuck it. Not here obviously because is not the right board, but I'm gonna do it for the lulz even send it to her parents.

I want to get rid of this pain, of the heartbreak, of feeling sorry for myself and just fuck life in return and just move on and become stronger and I feel like this is the only way I can do it. People change us, and this is the only way I can stop loving her, through hate. And all I'm gonna ask is, does she deserve it?


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Eeyore 17/11/04(Sat)21:53 No. 5606 ID: a57be3

>>5579
Also this. We're only getting one side of your story, OP. Maybe you did some things that were wrong too. You certainly sound like someone who may have.

>The bulimia would come back if you did this.
Don't tell him that.


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Eeyore 17/11/11(Sat)02:45 No. 5622 ID: 44d49f

But isn't it illegal to spread somebody's nudes? I mean like if you did it on various chans, nobody would give a shit. But if you sent it to her parents, wouldn't they know it's you?


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Eeyore 17/11/13(Mon)02:23 No. 5626 ID: 1533c8

>>5606
He knows, subconsciously at least. That's why he'd do it. He wants to take back everything he ever gave her. I know the feeling; it hurts like that the first time.




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